OK...it was quite a happy day for me at first...was mugging for my chinese CA tomolo, den my HP rang, said she's calling from TCS...at first i was like huh ? Then she repeated herself and said she's calling from TCS...i was like shocked...and den she continued to say tht i'm selected and wants me to go for audition...man, i was so happy and shocked. The first person i told was weng laoshi~ haha, was so happy and mad, and she was laughing at me... audition will be on sat, so scary, hope all goes well for me~ =)

Ok, but before i know it, i'm in a terrible terrible mood again, all thanks to my mother, my real mother~ wah liew, does she always have to use such harsh words on me ? If i'm really such a piece of shit in ur eyes like you say, you didn't have to give birth to me~ it seems tht everything i've done nv seemed to make u happy or proud, in fact, they all seemed be look like thrash in ur eyes. Give me a break. You said u didn't cherish me, fine, be it tht way, i've used to this kind of teatment alrd. Since pri 3, i've always been hearing these kind of words, i'm growing immune to it already. U wish i wasn't ur daughter, sometimes i wish i wasn't too. I thot things were changing for the better, but damn it, i dun think so. Many times i've tried tolerating ur unreasonable demands, but u nv seems to appreciate or realised all tht i've done. Sometimes, there are things i did which i thot wld made u proud, but all u said is tht they're nonsense. U always claimed tht i dun love u, but tell me, hw do u expect me to show u tht i do when u're always treating me this wae? I love u k mummy, but the fact u're always saying all these harsh words to me make me feel further and further awae frm u ? Alrd we're like not very close? And if u're constantly doing these to me, i wonder if i'll ever die.

I wanted to cry just nw, but i told myself nt to, big girls dun cry. I muz be brave. Tell me wad i'm supposed to do, wad exactly shd i do to make u proud, cos i really dunno.

Sometimes, i really wish tht i've already grew up, so tht i can start working and nt spend a single cent from her anymore. Just nw, she even said i cld move out if i jolly well want. I wish i could. Money is such a problem, hw far can i go without money ? Sometimes i really wish i could run awae from home...maybe one of these daes, i really shd. Sometimes, enuff is really enuff.