Day one of my isolation: I did it! Todae wasn't such a bad dae, except tht i woke up wif a black face... but it was alrite. Went to work at 9am, started work at 10am. It was a boring start off... writing cny cards again, checking the addresses, putting ang baos into evelopes...den Julie came in at 11am and asked me to deliver the clients' cheques and cny cards to the headquarters, which was at cityhall... haha, i thot it was quite cool~ i got her pass and managed to enter the headquarter office that's highly secured~! Haha...quite fun...but when i was there, there were a lot of weird stares! Lol... guess probably cos i looked very young, i mean pple who worked at raffles city are at least in their twenties rite...den they kept staring at me, as though i'm an intruder and as if i'm gonna plant a bomb in their office.
Went for lunch after that... had BK. I order double mushroom meal and changed my fries to onion rings. I'm so gonna swear that that wld be the last time eating at BK. I dunno why but it tasted horrible, i haf to force myself to gorge it down~ i stopped when i finally couldn'y take it, by then i only had 4 onion rings left, so it wasn't thttt bad... i finished my burger and my drink... i was so damn full also... felt like puking~guess lunch was tht horrible cos i had it alone, it was a lonely and sad lunch, but i guess i shd take it as a kinda training.
Rushed back to the office at 12.30, den did data entry all the till 3pm. Was listening to the FM while doing, and Celest was being interview. Kinda cool, haha, she kept me company in the quite and boring room, but actually, i quite like being in tht room, since there's no once else, i'm quite 'stress-free' if u noe wad i meant.Julie actually wanted me to stay till like 4 or 5 to help her write bdae cards, and she told me that the cards will be delivered to the office by 2pm. But by the time i finished at 3, the cards were still nt here, so i called her. Since there was nthing left for me to do, she told me to go home... haha, so i knocked off early todae =)
Went home rite after tht...actually i wanted to take a nap cos i was quite tired... but i got glued to the comp. Was as usual, doing my 'homework' on vicki... haha, i realised i still can't get over her, although i like some other stars nw, i realised that she's still the best... really like her a lot, she's very unique, someone who really has her own views and perspectives. I guess after all these years, grew to really noe and understand her. Some of u think hw cld it be possible to understand and noe her real self... hmm... i wldn't sae tht i totally knows wad's she thinking all the time, but i noe i noe more than many fans out there... aiyah... this kinda thing very difficult to explain one lah...only pple who feel for this kinda thing will noe...but to me, i think i call this fate.
Used the comp for a few hrs and went for dinner wif my parents after that. When dinner was consumed, i went to meet jingwen to do some 'star chasing'. We went down to novena to meet the rest. When we met the rest, we took a bus to SLF building. It was really dark dere and we still had to walk up the steep slope... kns... i seemed so unfit...think i really gotta go do some exercise alr... i'm supposed to be sporty~! We waited for about 1++ hr before ms chong finally arrived in a station wagon. She got a new assistance, but i can't remember her name~! Haha, she's a rather young, petite and pretty lady. Yep, when celest came out of the car, she was like "HELLO!" I was diaoz... haha, den she chat wif her casually for a few moment, there was this irritating international fan tht kept asking celest for signatures and celest signed them all... den celest toked to us until she forgot she gotta go in alr and we even hurried her in.
WAited outside the radio station while she did the radio interview and and we all tunned it tht channel.We entertained ourselves by crapping and laming ard.When it was time to call in, Helen got thru, and when the deejay asked her wad did she want to sae to celest, she said "oh nthing lah, we just call to 'za chang'(disrupt order) only!"The deejay was like somewhat horrified and said "oh since that's the case, i shall nt tok to u alr!" and the line was dead... lol
She finally came out of the studio at about 11+, when she came out, we had a nice little talk which lasted for about half an hr... she talked to all of us, one by one and we were again, crapping. They were all asking her if she liked the presents they gave her, it was quite a awkward moment for me...since i nv give her anything... i haven't like her to the extent tht i'll buy something for her... haha, even for vicki, i didn't really give her anything before, at least nt in my memory...even if i did, i probably did it in a million yrs ago.Actually i thot she forgotten me alr... but haha, she didn't! She still remembered my name!I cld actually ask for to take a photo wif her but i didn't want to be like so anti-climax, so i suggested a group picture.The pic was quiteeeeeeee alrite, will send it to her sometime soon.She told us bout her filming exp at Taiwan wif Benny chan but i better nt disclosed it...at the end, she hugged all of us...one by one...and when it was my turn...my god...i stepped on her!!! Haha...but she didn't even feel it... lol...alrite, gtg nw, still gotta work tomolo.nite!
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Going solo, the road to isolation
I'm so tired... mentally and physically. Actually, i'm very sad todae, i feel so neglected and upset, and the cause of it is still the same.Pls dun ask me why it's liddat, it has happened and i'm trying to be very ignorant about it.If I can be treated as if i'm so insignificant, i dun see why i haf to care so much about those pple.I'm gonna challenge myself to ignore all these... let's see how long i can do so... let's set it min at 2 weeks and longest at 1 mth. If i can endure this torture, den i'll really clap and salute myself, and tell myself i'm really independent, that i do nt need this deceiving surreal superficiency animore. I must be strong, even if i'll lose everything eventually.
work was alrite today, just that there's really a lot to do and that n that i didn't really get a proper seat, so i'm aching all over like shit. Started work at 10am today, i was on time! =D Work was at Yew Tee todae, managed to find my boss's hse wif ease~ phew. Actually come to think of it, my present boss isn't that bad, in fact, she's actually quite nice... maybe it's just the way she brings herself across. Guess i'm just too judgemental. First impression ain't always the rite impression, but it'll always be a lasting impression. Her hse was alrite... she has a very cute rabbit...by the name of ahboy i think... my god, the rabbit isn't a rabbit~ it's like soooo cute... it behaves like a dog~ she doesn't keep it in a cage, cos it's very big, so she lets it run ard the hse! And yeah, i was saying it's like a dog, it follows her around the house and when called, it'll respond and go to her! Cool rite??? That's the first time i ever seen a rabbit liddat! She also has a guinea pig...and when i was sorting out the no. cards in the living room, the guinea pig kept knocking it's head on the roof of the cage... poor thing, think the cage is a little too small... haha. Yep, too much things to do todae, and i cldn't finish everything. Her mother's very nice, kept gorging me wif food... but nw i gt sore throat. Lol... -.-' Will be going down to bugis to work tomolo, dunno if i'll haf anione to lunch wif, even if i dun haf, i must learn to be alone, so yep, let that be a start.
It's ok if no one understands what i'm toking, actually, that's the main purpose, i need to let it out, but i dun one pple to know what i'm toking about. As long as i understand, it's good enuff. So let's just hope that after my slp tonite, it'll be a better dae for me tomolo~ i'll endure, i must. Going solo, the road of isolation for me has began nw.
Monday, January 31, 2005
Superficiency
Finally decided to update. A lot has happened during all these time,but i just simply cldn't be bothered to update. School has started for almost a mth and i felt weird nt hafing to attend it. It feels so good but i also feel and know that i'm missing out a lot.
A lot of pple haf been asking me if i preferred working or studying, and i really must say that i prefer working~ it's like though working is kinda more tiring and boring... i still like it more~ I earn my own money and i spend my own money. I no longer haf to beg to get what i like and get upset when i can't get what i like. At the end of my work everyday, i'll feel so darn proud of myself and will walk in big strides, it's really a very carefree feeling, and i'm loving it.
Watched Ella enchanted and scooby dooby doo II, haha, sdd II is so funky... and i think Mathew Lillard is really so cool, i'm still mesmerised by him! Haha... weird taste u may think, but he's really cute when he's nicely shaved and trimmed! He's shaggy in the show but he's so funny! Ella enchanted is just another typical cinderella show... nthing unexpected... so yeah...
Went to worked at the office todae... man, i've got a new boss by the name of Julie... i dun like her!! *GULPS* She really behaves as the boss and i feel so uncomfortable wif her around lah... how ??? nvm, she'll only be my boss for one week... just bear wif her for one week jiabao... u can do it, she's nobody to u buy a ATM that pays u ur salary. Just get the things that she wants u to do rite and nt bother too much bout her. Everything will be over in a blink of an eye. That's rite. I mean, ya, even though she's really my boss, the person in charged of me, she cld haf been a little more friendly ??? Just a little?? Just smile at me at times and be less strict wld haf been very perfect alr.... but she's none of these, she just come in, gives instructions to me and goes out. I hate it man, she made me feel so inferior. Wafever lah~! SHIRLYN!!! TAKE ME BACK UNDER U!!! Haha... well, when this is over, i'll be working as a telemarketer alr, so hopefully, everything will be alritey...dun haf to see her stinking face.
Met up wif alycia todae...wah it's been a long time man... really miss that little person... haha, bought her belated belated bdae present. Oh yeah, den we went Seoul garden for dinner. As usual, Seoul garden was awesome. I dunno why but i really love seoul garden. I hate like 2 whole plates of chicken, 1 plate of prawns and sotong, some vimicelli, 6 cups of soft-drinks and 6 scoops of ice creams. We even came out wif our own recipe for sources to cook our food. Ms Alycia the great chef, is erhem, indeed great.
Alrite, that's all i haf to sae for nw. Last sentence before i leave sometimes, everything just seemed so superficial, u wanna do something to change the wae thing is, but sometimes, all u can do is stand and watch it happened, cos u're just so helpless.