sometimes i feel i'm gonna break down and cry

wor...been dunno hw many days since i updated this blog...wah darn sian man, in just 3 more days and school's gonna reopen, hw hw hw hw hw hw sickening can this be ? Hmm, i dunno if i'm excited or reluctant, haha, actually i'm half half. But nxt yr sec four, so i guess there's more reluctance den excitement... haha... miss a lot of pple in school, but when sch begins, i noe i'll miss my hols... lol, well, tht's human... and i'm only human. Haha... and wanna noe more ? I haven't even finish my hw and i had like piles more to go...sian... haha, the result of going out everydae-.-'

U noe, my mother can really be annoying and irritating at times, but there are times when she's real swt and stuff... i wonder why she can't be swt more than she's always annoying...she really pisses my ass off at times loh.... damn buay tahan one u noe... she expects me to do hw, and when i do do them, she doesn't see them, jus becos i'm in the room and she's in the kitchen... she claims she didn't see me do, so i assumed she wants me to do my hw rite before her eyes, which is really damn RIDICULOUS loh... i dun understand why she is so demanding and unreasonable u noe...if she's demanding only, tht's another case, but nw it's both which really makes it intolerable. ARHX.... sometimes i love her more than anything, but sometimes i really hate her, why is it tht all my auntie is so understanding and nice and she can't learn to be a little like dem? I'm nt expecting too much u noe... juz a little bit of care and concerm, love and care and gentleness will really satisfy me. Maybe just blame it on my luck, i'm damn suay. I can understand fierce and demanding mothers, but i can't understand fierce, spiteful, demanding and unreasonable mother. Maybe someone shd teach me, maybe i ought to be a more understand daughter. grr...... this is really living hell, it's killing me~

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Ignore my words, burning wif furry~!

PISSED like hell nw. Dun understand my mother..... damn irritating... the two elders of this household is pissing the hell outta meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Arggggghhhhhh save me frm this miserable hell. Dun understand this woman, she's probably pms-ing nw, nonono, shd be menopausing~! And i had to be the one to be picked to let her venge her anger on. UNREASONABLE HELL. I came home at 10.15, rushed home like nobody's business, and she was still grumbling complaining and scolding awae, like wad the hell is wrong wif her man. Ok, so even if she's concerned bout me, can't she like juz tell me NICELY?! Damn... muz it always be drama ?! I hate it like hell...den my father comes along. I switched on the comp and left it vaccant for like 10 mins cos i was changing my bedsheet, and he has to occupy it, even after i told him i'm coming, worst still, he had to continue even though i was waiting like rite beside him. Then my mother came and she was grumblinh awae~! Now wad?! She was grumbling tht i had left my hp on the table and i'm nt treating it so preciously nw... as in i'm nt taking care of them, putting it anywhere... like wad the hell... i placed it in the MIDDLE of the table and she complained tht i anyhow threw my fone... HELLO!!!!!! Tell me where u want me to put! It's not as if i've placed it at the egde of the table and tht it'll fall of anytime rite, it was at the MIDDLE of the table! I'm damn FED UP! If liddat also cannot, where u want me to put?! Where do i put tht u'll consider precious to me and nt anyhow throwing it?! IN MY BRA!?????! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... i'm pissed pissed PISSSSSSED. They're a pain in the ass and the neck and everywhere~!

Ok! That's ENUFF about the pains. ENUFF... calm down man. Went out wif yanhan, had a great dae, was at our usual hang out, and boy, did we see a million of pple there... lol...fine, i'm exaggerating. I spotted allan wu, boy, he's damn handsome well buit and hunky... yanhan was listening to music in hmv when i pulled her head fones down to tell her, and when she finally spotted her, she was like "OMG! He's so hunky!" Den i was like saying "DUH! U nv see his abs befoo...." I was cut off wif her sudden outburst of laughter, cos at tht time, allan wu suddenly happened to walk pass us, and i think he heard everything, wah liew, i was damn PAISEH ok... den i rushed out of HMV. So maluating. Then when we were walking and cutting across to one of the shop, i think it's U2... tht mad woman stopped abruptly again and made me stop, i didn't noe why she did tht till i saw allan wu right infront of me. It's so EMBARASSING ok... wah liew.. .like wad the hell.

I like one pair of jeans in U2...damn nice... haha, considering about getting it. Oh den we went christmas shopping, and yanhan wanted to get me something, but i didn't really see anything i like... only two teeny weeny bears which i went gaga over. Den she saw some vaccumed flattened pillow, so i said i'll get tht for her, we didn't get it till much later. We went to suntec, one of the halls, where one of the stalls in the school belongs to our sch, some entrepreuership thingi, but the stuff they sell there dun interest me so i wandered to the nxt store which interest me MORE than anything else. Man... they were selling hamster, dwarf hamster, they were seriously sooooooo cute, so adorable dat i really cldn't resist. I wanted so badly to buy it, even though it cost a bomb, $25... i really nearly bought it, but i didn't in the end, thinking bout wad tht woman at home may say to me if i brought it back. I left extremely sadly, so badly wanting to buy it, but i knew i cldn't, for the welfare of the hammy, wad if tht woman throws it dun the rubbish chute?! Tht wld be the end. I nearly cried when i left... but i was trying so hard to control it. I nv knew i was so vulnerable, but i really wanted tht hamster badly, VERY VERY badly. Toking bout it, i feel like crying again, my heart's aching more than anything. I pray very very hard and i hope very very very much tht i'll get a hamster or a dog for christmas or my bdae. And i swear tht when i move out of my own nxt time, my hse wld be filled wif animals. Man... i'm really gonna cry.

Dun really feel like blogging animore, my mood somehw seems to be a dampened nw. But i'll juz go on a lil more, cont walking... went for dinner and i nearly died eating, was damn bloated, cont to shop, and on our wae to one of the shops, gues who i met this time? Ms Shanthi and Mrs How. Lol... hw many pple can i see in one dae~! Oh yeah, i prob forgot to mention i saw mrs lena siau and and a dj, toshi~!

Aniwae,Yanhan saw the pillows she liked again wif more choices for her to choose frm. She gave me 4 choices, baby goofy, piglet, baby donald and baby mickey, told her to go one side to wait while i chose for her. I was hafing a hard time choosing, but i was mainly only choosing between baby goofy and baby donald. In the end i got her donald, luckily she said tht it's one of those tht she quite prefer over the 4. Phews. Den i show something i quite like but it was ex...so we didn't get it, after tht...i didn't really see anymore thing tht i like and it was getting pretty late, so we had to go home. I rushed home like mad and still get a shitty scolding. Hw i wish i'll nv haf to come bck to this shittified hse.

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long update

Yeah, long time no updates man, and my tag board is like DEAD. Feeling kinda dejected nw, the blues i've been feeling. Haha.. oh well. Let's continue updating.

Mondae: Went to watch brother bear...hehe, actually didn't want to watch it one, dunno y, somehw i got tempted and decided to watch, so i went wif eileen, bern, sp, ek and lishan, basically, the whole grp of pple lah. The show was relatively nice, i cried at the end... kinda touching, shd go watch if it interests u. Actually, i realised tht all disney's cartoons are good. Lol... i grew up wif it.

Tues: Went lishan's hse to bake... yeah, u didn't read wrong, b-a-k-e. Haha...actually i was so darn tired tht i fell asleep on the bed while they were doing their hw...and i actually slept awae and nearly drooled! -.-' After tht, went down to haf lunch, and like eileen said, the chicken we ordered was PUNY... but it tasted nt bad. Haha.. when we went back, we finally got work done. We started wif the cookies first, and believe it or nt, i did most of the job for these cookies alrite! Haha...tht eileen ah... so ai shou ai jiao... lol.. =X When the cookies were done, they wanted to bake a cake for eileen's father, by them... i was alr too tired frm all the stirring and mixing tht i decided to take a break... nv knew baking was this tiring! Dey continued wif the baking while i slacked. When my cookies were done, we all tried it. To me, i think it tasted quite tasteless, but to them, they all said it was nt bad. Hah... my first time leh! And when i brought it home, my momma says it tasted terrific! Hah! After tht, finally went home, feeling extremely tired.

Wed: Went out wif yanhan, guess it was kinda a long time since i last met up wif her huh ? Hehe... we met at Dhouby Ghaut but decided to head to marina sq for my BAK CHOR MEE!! Hahaha, usually at this time, the queue wldn't be long, and finally, i got to eat my bak chor mee. We went shopping, and G2000 happened to be hafing BlAZZARE sale, and we went in. I bought a white pants... haha, to my liking, i regreted nt buying the shirt ok! Den after tht... we went on shopping, laughing all the wae. Oh yeah, and we went to the arcade to play! Weee...but i was the only one playing.

Thurs: Went over to my cousins' hse... it's been rather a long time since i last went over to their hse. Brought my hp accessories over, and i finally got my hp pics uploaded! Yay! And i even got QING TIAN ringtone nw. WOoohoo~! Haha.. .we were playing and at night, we headed down to the small wonders circus. Haha, quite funny and lame lah, and my cousin and i were even picked to go down to volunteer some relatively stupid acts...where the whole stadium was roaring wif laughter! So embarassed.Went back to their hse, and my aunty and all my cousins sat down together and we chatted together!!!!! LOL...aren't i attractive...lol, the whole family was there toking wif me... This is my fav family of relatives! Lol...one of the many relatives i can really share my troubles wif and get along wif! =P We chatted all the way till 3.30am! My aunty even offered to lend me 250 to pay off my debts! Haha... jennifer aunty u rawk man! Haha... we all went to bath, and some went off to slp, they gt knocked out pretty soon. Aunt Jen's pretty hyper still at nite...she's damn hilarious lah...a mother of 3 and can still behave like a kid! She was busy trying to dig her daughter's pig stuff toy's nose ok! She even climbed onto the table juz to reach for the pig! LOL! DARN funny... i was laughing my jaws off... even fell onto the floor!
When i came out of the bath, everyone was asleep everyone, except my guy cousin... haha, so i ventured into his room and we played the comp till 7 in the morn! Haha, i broke my record again! Wooooohooooooooooo! ;)

Sat: Went out wif aud and her fellow friends, eh, serena, cynthia and hailing. Pretty fun pple to hang out wif, funky pple~Serena was supposed to meet at my hse bus stp at 11.15... but she sent me a sms to postpone it till 11.45, and wif rotten luck, i didn't receive, so i waited like shit. Haha.. and finally she appeared. We ate lunch wif the rest, she and i ordered 2 bowls or bak chor mee and one fried kuay tiao~! Haha.. nt bad the food there. Den we actually wanted to go kbox, but they find it too ex so we didn't go. Haha, den we tried our luck for pools, but audris YOUTHFUL face gave us awae...lol... therefore we ended up playing bowling instead... haha, heh, nt bad eh this time. I wasn't among the last, infact, i was 2nd! Woooohooooo ;) Haha... really had fun wif all those pple. BUT... on our wae to the bowling alley, i injured myself. There's a fucking tooth pick on the floor which i didn't see it and i was wearing slippers, and somehw, the damn toothpick went into my foot! OUCH! I had to PLUCK it out ya noe.... hurts like hell. After all these fun, i was persuaded into going service wif them, i gave in and went wif them. During the service, aud cried pretty badly...dun really noe wad happened, but i learnt tht during service, pple usually cry when god has touched their heart. So maybe she was crying cos god has touched her pretty deeply. Hope it's juz as simple as this and tht she isn't sad or upset wif anything. After service, was supposed to go home but i headed for the arcade wif hailing instead. We went to bugis's arcade and played my fav, rock fever~oh and guess wad? There's a new version of rock fever, damn ex, $2 per game, but we played anywae, real shiok~! Heh.

Sun+Tdy: Went out wif family, bought a lot of vcds... heh... can stay home and watch liao =P Started playing diablo again... but this time, it doesn't really seem tht he's very keen to play like he was last ime =)

Wells, like my ahbu say, tomolo will be a better dae, ming tian hui gen hao, hope so =) Will be going out wif han, sighs, been going out everydae tht i haven't even do my hols hw yet, which is like one whole moutain pile, and i was supposedly supposed to study, which i too haven't. I think i'll die nxt yr~! ~.~

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Eh..it's a boring day todae... stayed at home the whole day...guess i hardly noe wad boredom is till todae...lol...it's been a long time since i actually felt bored...

I had KFC yet again for dinner...gosh...i feel fat...lol...nono, most of all, i feel tht my throats bad~ Haha... I nearly freaked out again just nw when singtel sent me the bills, 120 bucks total. I nearly died...but when i called to clarify wif eileen, it didn't sound THT bad... but still, yes... still bad... LARGE sum of money... my mind is running wild as to wad my mother might do to me! Wahaha...can just imagine her screaming awae....actually i really felt damn bad loh... it's like i've alr spent so much on the fone... 600++ leh! Den nw all the bills and stuff...OMG... luckily i'm guai and sensible enuff to settle the other 250 bucks myself...otherwise i think my mother will really die. Sianz...i guess rite nw, there's nthing i hate more than money! Erm besides my 2nd sis. Lol... money is the cause of EVERYTHING. Hate this 2 thing like heeeeell. But like where i'm gonna find the 250 bucks, i dunno. Maybe i shd try asking god. Hahahahaha-.-'

Eileen's so funny with his brother... haiz...i wish i had a younger brother or sister to play wif...or bully! Muahaha...i feeeeeel lonely! Got sisters = no sisters. Sighs. It's just me myself and i.

Had a fabulous day yesterdae with eileen, bern and han. Lol... my relationship wif bern is getting better man, at least i hope so... lol... eileen's pretty quiet yesterdae... but it's alrite...haha, i felt tht we've gt pretty strong foundation alr, we're pretty close.. i think...haha, nothing's gonna pull me awae frm her...i'm stuck on her! Lol... sikalli it's only me who feels like this... but somehw i feel eileen dun quite think i'm very reliable or trustable yet... haha... friendships need time to develope. Eh...this kinda thing cannot hurry...too anxious bout it will only make things worse...so hopefully i haf the patience eh? Haha... yes! Lol.

Eh...i dunno y...but shit man, i'm really damn bored todae... dunno y. Bern and eileen kept telling me tht boredom does wonders... and i wonder y it hasn't done anything of tht sort to me yet... ahahaha, as in i haven't done anything abnormal yet... i meant tht kinda things they do when they're bored... lol =X Wait till they c this. Haha!

I want to go on writing...but i dunno wad to write alr...hmm...maybe bout wad i did todae? Heh... we'll c if i've done anything abnormal.

Woke up at 12.30
had lunch
used the comp
went into my room and sorted out my table
played wif my hp
had dinner
talked with eileen
bathed
watched tv
used the comp
talked to audris
used the comp
and i'm here

see...tht's all...nothing unusal! haha...ok, maybe i'm just normal n they're nt...muahaha... ok lah, really nthing to sae alr.. ciaoz!

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*yawns* i'm tired tired tired...lol...did a looooot of walking todae...eyes are like closing...-.-'' it's been internity since i last blogged here... haha, and i dun feel tht i've gt much energy left to write about today's happening...soo long... so to cut a long story short...haha, all i wanna say is tht..... eileen and bern.....u all rawk my world man...i love ya!! FOOOREVER.. haha... hanhan..u rawk too! Luv ya allllllll... lol...oh man, do i sound drunk?! Lol... nitey world....... hohoho

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Yawns man...i just woke up. I've been going out EVERYDAY this wk. Let's see...

Mondae
I went out to watch the latest Zhao Wei show... Warriors of Heaven and Earth. Although there isn't much of her in the show, i think the show was overall, awesome.

Tuesdae
Went to Denise's hse. Wheeeeeeeee.... i miss her like mad, more than anything, it's nearly been a yr since i last saw her. Haha, we were playing playstation, it was damn fun loh, we were playing all the gun games, and u noe wad, madness, she looks as though she've got all the games in the world. *faints* Lucky her. Haha. Den she got other friends at her hse, but they're all younger than us, the oldest is only 12, the rest were like little boys and girls aged 7-9. The little boy named isac was damn swt, the guai-est of all, but ahahaha...he's damn funny and ridiculous.

Wednesday
Went out with my cousins, all girls, lol... we call it girls' day. As usual, we were mad...ahaha, and yeah, we gossiped lah. Went shopping and eating and shopping and eating. When we were eating at KFC, i just said a joke which i didn't think was very funny, but my two mad cousins laughed their heads off. One even laughed till she drooled and the other was like arrtracting all the attention. We're just mad. Tht's all i can say. Haha, and we went to the arcade, boyyyyy... i had FUN there. I love going to arcadeeeeeeeeeee... wheeeee... haha

Thursdae
CLDDS meeting, supposedly. Erhem. Haha, we planned and evon was trying all her might to waste paper. Tht mand woman lah, dunno wad's with her. Then later, we went bugis to buy the materials. We went to take neoprint first and den bought the materials. We went for lunch and yoshinoya, but so sad, there's no more beef bowl promo liao. Haha, after tht, believe it or nt, I went to the ARCADE again. I'm mad, yes i noe. Haha, i played the drums, and i improved~! I got a B grade~! Practices make perfect yeah?! Haha, but tht will probably mean more money. $$$ -.-' After all these, went to bras bersah and buy more materials, believe it or nt, we spent a total of 40++ bucks on our board ok, ahaha, our board is VALUABLE. Muahaha, went bck to sch and stayed till 7++... we were the only ones there k.

Today
Wheeeeeeeee... went to k box. Haha, damn cheap, or shd i just sae it's considered cheap. Ahaha...we sang like hell, damn fun, and yeah, it was kinda bad also, keep hafing to listen to evon's and pamela's singings. Sighs. =X Lol... and believe it or nt, i went to the arcade YET AGAIN. I'm seriously addicted. Helppppppp... haha

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YO!!! Man...i'm so abnormal...it's 6am in the morning and i'm like still so awaked and alive. I didn't just wake up mind you, i stayed up the whole nite. I'm over at bern's hse nw...staying over...hehehe, my nice momma finally agreed to let me stay over. =D

Aniwae, it wa overall a great day. It's like all so co-incidental todae? When i was on my wae to wdlands to meet eileen, i met bern in the SAME mrt carriage... hahaha... hw nice. Den after tht, when we were leaving for toa payoh, we met my DA JIE...wahahaha. It's like really so cool ?! Tht's nt all, lishan and bern were also on the SAME train with us -.-' Tht's like total madness... but i think it's awesome...haha, nv tried before so many pple meeting together on the same train.

Before going tp, we went to buy all the bbq stuff...and believe it or nt...we actually haf to marinate them all by overselves...it's damn gross loh, esp when it comes to marinating the prawns and SOTONG esp... my gaaaaaawd...i nearly puked, the smell was horrendous! Wah liew, the sotong rite, when u opened the plastic bag, the smell just come gushing out and it seriously seriouly stinks like HELL...and the feeling is like so soapy, so slippery, so soft, so slimy... ahh the S-es... hahaha... and i was like the man who did the sotongs some more. YUCKS... gross...thinking back bout tht smell, i feel like puking again. Eileen did the prawns which was like nt ani better. Now i finally understand the torment my mother haf to go thru every wkend!!~ MUM u're the best man. Haha... And i dun ever wanna haf anithing associated wif seafood again, at least nt in the near future. Haha...maybe i dun even wanna learn hw to cook when i get married, ok...i'm drifting off the point again. Hehe...

Aniwae, had a great dae, watched a lot of CrAYOLA SHIN and i FINALLY bought my so close...but u noe wad??!?!?!?!? They cut off the kissing part...hell...ok wadever... aniwae, i gtg~! Nite...or shd i sae morning...lol

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Haha, yesterdae was my cousin's wedding...hehe, she's my 4th cousin to get married...i think it's so cool, wonder when will be my turn~! Ahahaha...-.-' it seems a bit too far to be toking bout this hor... =P

Aniwae, haha, i dunno why, but whenever i see pple getting married, i'm always very happy for them~! Hehe...
It was kinda family gathering for me yesterdae lah, i dun really get to see my cousins like very often, last time we used to always meet up during the hols, but nw as we all grew older, we got our own friends and stuff to attend to, ahaha, some even got their boyfriends~! So yep...nw it's like we only see one another at least once a year, which was kinda saddening... lol...i miss them so much ok, ahaha, and i love them so...they totally rawk man~

At first, each family had to sit at one table, haha, but we requested tht all the kids sit at one table, and we were granted~! Lol...my cousins and i sat together and we were toking a LOT. We even said tht we want to go kbox... heh, can't wait man.

Been back frm the chalet for a few days alr...kinda inconveniet to blog bout it, all i can say tht some pple who went is rather unhappy bout things... dunno if i'm too sensitive, but the look on her face says it alll... haha, guess this will be the first and last time tht i'll ever organise a chalet. =)

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My kinda life = techno = my life = missing you

SIGHS... i was woken up early in the morning by my mother's and sister's yellings... they were like yelling the hell outta one another, my mother pms-ing again...or shd i say it's menopause?! Wadever man...really hell man...it's nt as though my life ain't peaceful enuff...in the end i haf to comfort my mother somemore.... sighs...

Was watching tv all the wae...den went out wif my parents, went PS for lunch den they brought me to see the chalet, so tht i wld noe hw to go nxt week. After tht, my mother went shopping, she shopped as though she've just struck lottery liddat...i only bought one gio's cotton knit sweater. SIGHS. While she was trying out her clothes in the shop, i waited for her outside, kinda like her image consultant.

Dunno why...it seems like all those shops we visited todae were like playing techno music. Den remember someone said tht i've got wierd or no taste just becos i like techno. Was kinda thinking bout it when i was in the shop. I used to didn't noe why i love techno so much, but i finally found the answer todae. Techno is my life, everything about techno, the beats, the music, and most of the words and lyrics (decent), describes me. Noisy music, messyness of the music describe my state of mind... It seems tht i seldom haf a peace of mind. Besides, those techno music always sounds like so stressed, sad and wanting to venge everything out, i feel tht's so me too... i love techno, tht's me. Accept me for who i am. Anywae, i nv really cared if anyone really accepted me for who i am, esp pple who i dun consider close to me. Take me or leave me, as i'm always saying, i wun die without anione.

Chalet is coming soon. Everything's likfe so unplanned... I wonder if anything's happening to pple all ard me... pple in bad mood, pple not wanting to talk, pple running awae and all these kinda of rubbish, even i myself feel so trapped. Wad's this world coming to ??? Well...let's just pray tht after i come bck frm the chalet, i'll feel better. I guess maybe i'm in this state again becos i miss someone...sighs...it's been a long time....

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Deep within

Haha...had yet another long dae todae...went to school early in the morning for the english course...and oh man...we haf to do compre....grrr... Well...guess if i really want to improve, i'll haf to work harder. =I

Let's see, it's only the 4th dae of the school hols...let me rest just a little bit more...maybe 2 more wks ???? Haha... or maybe i'll start mugging or studying in december or something ? I dunno...i always think of starting early, but in the end, i can nv do tht...sighs...

Came home at ard 6++, after eng lesson, went to look for weng laoshi, but we met ms shanthi instead...ahaha, this tcher... sighs, i miss her man! It's been a long long time since i last really had a decent chat wif her...hw i miss her... haha. She asked bout my results, my god...wad can i sae bout her? I think she's really one of the greatest teacher on earth man... When she heard tht Pamela flunk her eng, she was kinda disappointed, although she doesn't teach her since 2 yrs ago...and know wad she said to pam in order to try to make her study ?! She said tht if pamela dun at least get a pass for eng nxt yr, she'll tender a resignation letter!!!!!! '_'... oh my god, i think she's mad...it's nt like she's playing wif anything small or trivial...it's her JOB...madness...sheer madness. I dunno if she was just joking or if she was serious, she didn't look too serious but she didn't look as though she was kidding too... pamela...u better dun take her words for granted...cos if u disappoint her again, u're gonna be guilty for the rest of ur life...u made a teacher resign becos of u~! Haha...

After all these looking of teachers stuff, niva, audris, pamela, edrea and i went to KFC for lunch! Yumps...love it man, hw delicious! Oh no...better make myself do some exercise man. After lunch, went back to school again for chem lesson.

Chem lesson was pathetic man...only like 8 pple out of 38 pple frm my cls turned up?! Haha....tht's the way my cls is man, if everyone turned up, it wldn't be called 3/7 animore, i guess it'd be called 7/3 instead..lol, chem was quite ok lah, kinda peaceful and mrs tay was in good mood i think, probably becos there weren't irritants to piss her off...and the cls was so nice, so peaceful...sighs, if only it's liddat everytime, think we'll be in a better environment to learn things =).

After chem, still didn't go home, hung ard in school wif cecilia. It was raininig kinda heavily therefore we didn't want to go aniwhere else, so we stay put. My god...we were really toking our hearts out man, we went so deep... hw deep? We toked till the both of us teared together...tht's hw deep we went into... man, didn't i just say i love toking to tht girl ? Haha, although we're nt the bestest of friends, i just love toking to her. =) Haha, love ya cecilia!

Nites pple.

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Results dae

Wor...just came home...so tired man...slept at 2am and had to wake up at 6 todae?! Yawns... haha, yesterdae was one of the coolest days in my mind i guess...somehw... didn't want to come home and face the situation, was wanting to run awae frm reality...so yeah, know wad i did ? I took the north-east line...back and forth to spend some time off...as in dun want to come home so early...so yep, was alone, but i can tell u...the trip was really a good one...slept in the journey, but it was so shiok, so alone, so in the world of my own where no body can bother me. =) Nw i noe wad or where i shd do and go when i'm feeling upset again...haha, i dun really haf to depend on anyone tht much alr =D

Yep, went to school to collect my results...wasn't feeling very tensed or wad...since i alr noe tht i've passed my eng...i didn't dare to expect too much frm myself, since i knew tht this time i didn't really put in all my effort to study to get good results...so i was only expecting to advance to sec 4... haha, and knowing tht i've passed eng, it's nt so bad afterall...

Ms yue went ard giving the report bk to us one by one...so nice of her...before she came to me, i got back my eng paper first...ahaha.. kinda pleased wif it...nt very good but yeah, at least it was something i least expected it...was reading tru my compo...my ideal life partner...ahaha, it was so hilarious...maybe i'll put it up nxt time =P Den ms yue came, ahaha, she so nice and encouraging...said tht i've improved quite a lot but i muz continue to work harder, said tht i can definitely do better than this and asked my to practise my a.maths more and my lit too...den she gave me a pat and said well done but strive harder =D Oh man...i feel so guilty for failing my maths... i'll work harder for my maths nxt year! Gambate! Oh and i'm really surprised bout my cls position...man...it's been kinda long time since i gt into top 10 again...ahhh...the feeling is so good... ok, i really promise to work harder nxt yr! For the teachers' sake and for my sake. I think the last time i gt into top 10 was last yr...but it wasn't really top 10...becos there were two 9th...there was no 10th, so i was the 11th, but oh well...i considered tht as the 10th lah =P Haha...i was 16th in cls for mid-yrs and i rose to 8th nw.... HEeeeeeee=D So happy! Aniwae, i'm really so happy for everyone in my cls...none of us have to retain! Wooooohoooo...well done man 3/7 =D

After results, wanted to go get back ALL my papers, and i thot i saw mrs vincent...so i ran after her, calling after "her"...but when tht person turned, it was someone else, so malu ok...den damn lah, all the teachers out invigilating todae, cldn't get back my paper....grrr...

Went orchard HMV...was listening to a lot of songs...ahhh...nw there's so many cds tht i wanna buy... zhou chuan xiong's, k one's, liv's, fukuyama masaharu's and more more more....sighs...i need $$$ -.-' Aniwae, as usual, yanhan was mad, the both of us kept laughing for no reason, after orchard, we wanted to kinda relax...ahaha, so we took mrt all the way to punggol and back to cityhall...inside the train, we were sleeping and listening to our discman...so cool... ahaha. Wonder if any of ur ever experience this...why is it tht it's ALWAYS so much statics in citylink ? Hahaha...really wonder. We went to eat our BA CHOR MEEEEE....my fav.....just love it...thinking bout it...i'm bout to drool again... after lunch, we went to visit HAMSTERS...ahaha...they soooo sooo sooo sooo sooo cute and adorable and irresistable, i want to koup one home~! ahhh... i miss my hammies... =( Den we went to visit kois...we actually wanted to feed them, but wah liew, their food very ex man... haha, kk, tht's all for nw... once again, i really wanna thank god and those who prayed for me =D

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Celest!~ + Yan Han u rawk my world

Just had yet another fight wif my mother, some misunderstandings and rudeness thingi again, sometimes i'm really tired of all these, dying soon, swear i'm on the verge of breaking down and giving up...

Was lying in my room reflecting bout what happened when Yan Han called...man...had a long talk wif her... she comforted me and talked me round lots of stuffs, ahaha, although some may nt make sense... =X Wad can i say bout her? She simply rawk my world man...just when i needed someone, she called me up ? Haha, is this some kinda fate or telepathy? Wad wld i do without her?

Hmm...as i said, sometimes when i really needed someone to be here for me, it's always those who are nt exactly my closest friends who are here, it's usually only my close or good friends...get wad i mean ? Like edrea, it seems tht she's like the only one who can read my thots nwadays... and yeah, cecilia too...it seems tht the others haf forgotten bout me...and sometimes i really felt alone in this world...but oh well, yan han proved me wrong? Haha...she was here for me, and she's actually one of those closest friends i haf... haha, or erm, did she really just happened to call co-incidentally ? =I Well...obviously she did lah... haha... but at least she bothered to hang on and asked if i was alrite when i sounded wierd... unlike some real close friends who obviously knew i was nt rite and left me in the lurch...say bye bye and go, minding their own business...hmm...maybe i've judged them wrongly ? Well, pamela was there for me most of the time too =) Well...just really wanna thank them...

Aniwae, enuff of those horrible memories...it just really pained me to recall it again. Sighs... Yep, kinda just came home...was out the whole dae since 10.05...went to chase celest again...ahaha...my god...we thot her event wld be at 12 but it ended up tht her event is at 5 ?! Oh man... and wld u even believed this? Ahaha... we stood there like idiots for 8 hrs?! FAINTS... Finally she appeared...it was a cooking show lah...she cooked, but she didn't win...in fact erm...she scored the lowest...
wahahaha-.-' but yet, i guessed it was KINDA worth going there...kinda only lah... waited for like 8 hrs ++ but only gt to talk to her for like 20mins ? Haiz...yeah, but she was damn friendly as usual loh... I actually didn't want to go one...cos like wad? It's all the wae at bukit batok? Madness...but i give her face...ahaha, cos tht time i didn't go and she actually asked "where's jiabao?! She nv come ah?" Woah...she's actually remembered me...ahaha, i'm remembered by a star man... steady hor ? :p Took an individual pic wif her...ahaha, when it's ready...will post it up for u guys to admire...lol...k lah, kinda tired, i want to run away frm reality and go to my dream world alr, where everything there is perfect and the way i want them to me... good nite world =)

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back frm obs

WEEEEEEEEEEEE.... i'm back frm obs...hmm, i wondered if i've grew darker...i felt i've grew kinda darker...but my mother and my sister said no~! Oh man... aniwae, i guessed obs wasn't so bad...but hmm, tht's maybe becos we were in residential...omg, i thanx god for tht...otherwise maybe i'd just die... cos u noe why ? Cos it's the monsoon season nw, so it kept raining and raining...we didn't sleep in our rm for 2 nites, and out of those 2 nites, it poured cats and dogs on one, our expedition day...omg...we slept in a ten which wasn't even long enuff to cover our whole body! Or am i like too tall ?! Ahaha... my legs were like sticking out of the tent ?! And my legs were soaked alrite...so were almost my whole body!!! The tent was like kinda an open tent and it cldn't even prevent the rain water frm coming in, in the end, i didn't slp for the whole nite! I went to slp at ard 12++ but i cldn't slp partially becos of the rain and partially becos of the noise. I cldn't slp at all! And in the end when i was bout to fell asleep at ard 4++, we gt to wake up cause someone said a storm was about to come ?! Oh god.......... was so freaking tired man!

We did quite a lot of fun stuff in obs lah, one of the best i liked was rock climbing...everyone in my grp called me a monkey... -.-' Whenever i climbed, they wld go "wah jiabao damn fierce man!" Ahaha... okay...i think i'm such a show off...but c'mon lah, muz let me admire myself lah~! Ahaha...ok i'm so bhb...but of cos i'm nt perfect, i've got so many maluating moments when i was there too! Since long ago, i knew my sense of direction was bad bad bad bad bad... ahaha, and this time during obs, i grew more aware of it...hw can i say...my sense of direction is HORRIBLE...ICORRIGIBLE...i discovered it during my kayaking session, i partnered my cldds "surbordinate" alycia, ahaha, i sat infront and she sat behind...and my god...i totally dunno which side to paddle to change direction man, which is so MALUATING! As a president of CLDDS...i actually like my "surbordinate" haf a chance to laugh her head of at me...this is badddddddddd.... i dunno where to hide my face alr...wait till she tells the whole grp... another maluating incident is tht we used ground sheet as our base when we slept in our tents during the expedition, so after use, it's of course sandy rite ? So we haf to use a stick to beat the ground sheet to dust off the sand...and knoe wad? I merely use SOME of my strength only and i only hit like 3 hits and i broke the stick! OMG!!! Since when i became sooooooo strong...even i was like WTH?! And the whole grp was laughing at me...haha, i feel like such a clown.

We eat like 4 meals a day over there, and i'm such a big eater...i just eat and eat and eat, almost everyone eat 1 serving but i actually asked for extra servings for practically every meal! It's like i feel tht i've used so much energy there to do all those activities, i swear they were hell energy draining man...so i always haf to eat a lot to replenish my energy, yep...and i thot i'll put on weight when i come back...but u noe wad?! I weighed myself yesterdae morning and i found out i lost 2kg?! This is so illogical!

When i came bck to singapore, i received many sms...ahaha, but the best one got to be frm audris! Cos noe why?! She brought me the good news....... WHOOOOOHOOOOOO...u noe wad?! NOE WAD NOE WAD?! I passed my ENGLISH!@ WAH~!!!!!!!! I dun haf to RETAIN! OMG!!! I'm so thankful to god... hw can i ever repay god and those who had prayed for me?!

Okok, i missed everyone~! HOPE TO SEE U ALL SOON! MUACKSZ

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OBS tomorrow

Sighs...i'm leaving for obs tomolo....dunno if i shd be happy or shd i be sad... haha... oh well...wadever it is... i haven't even packed my bag yet....i'm mad...trust me to go there with everything missing... ahahaha

Hmm...i guess i'll miss my friends when i'm there, and i think i'm gonna be home sick, ahaha, i'm going to miss the luxuries... hehe...gosh, i sound so spoilt and pampered... i think i'll be able to tolerate everything there except one, which is the toilet~ argh...i can't stand hafing flies ard my butt~! Grrrrrr... haha. =S I wonder if i'll come back alive... haha, maybe it'll be better if i can die there...den i dun haf to come back here to face the music... as in see my atrocious results. SIGHS.

Aniwae to all my friends... I'LL MISS ALL U PEEPS...AHAHA, DUN FORGET TO MISS ME TOO~!

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Haiz...papers are finally all over...but yep...like many pple, didn't haf tht kind of whooohooo feeling, instead, i haf tht kind of waiting for death to arrive feeling, cos i noe i'll sure die this time round. A.maths...tough, dun wanna tok bout it, if i die, tht's probably 1 week + later... wadever it is nw, dun feel like thinking bout it or saying bout it...cos i'm really drained

Went marina's seoul garden wif my horny partners after a.maths paper...haha, glad and i ate like anithing, pigs. I mean c'mon, u spent 12++ there, it's only normal tht u try to gulp down as much as u can to make ur spend worth it rite?! Haha, but aww...poor amie...she nv eaten seoul before, and she's like so fussy bout food~! This one dun eat tht one dun eat, and in the end, she spent 12++ to go inside eat 2 pieces of dao pok, few veggie, chicken and ice cream...haha, i think tht's all, after which she's full...and poor her, she had to wait for the two pigs who were busy gobbling away...and she was so bored tht she felt jailed~ poor girl...she can't sit still lah...she wants to go shopping, which glad and i were quite reluctant to...ahaha, u noe we're nt tht type... well, was quite disillusioned these few days lah, but when i'm wif them or friends, i kinda put my troubles away though they can still be visible.

Headed to town to take neos after this. Went far east...phew, didn't meet lots of pple there =D My god, we went nuts taking neos...we took 3 all together!!!! We're addicted...haha, but amie said each one turned out to be worst den the other, and poor her, she was so heart ached...hehe, darling, *get well* soon.


We look so close here, *heex*


And who has got the dirtiest shoes?!


Ahaha, glady's face gt cut off...trying to left amie smell our butts...poor her, we were laughing non-stops and almost practically rolling on the floor till pple outside were staring at us...ahhaha-.-' I realised glad got nice silky smooth shiny legs.... =X


We're exhausted~!!! After like taking nv ending shots and laughing non-stop...hehe...saw our names? We're the HORNY gang...ahaha.


Tht's rite...we love each other much much...hehe


We're the crowned princess~! Princess diaries~!


R(A)= the MOST HILARIOUS ONE...hahaha...let's c who has gt the biggest! Hee, maybe i shd censor it...oops =X


Nah...smell our asses again...ahaha, we're obsessed with our asses -.-'


Okie...this is the one tht amie they all hate most, they felt so cheated of their feelings and money... hehehe...

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I wonder wad wld i ever do without eileen....
EILEEN!!! I love u so much~!!!!!! Heex... so rou ma, so mushy.... *hair stands*

Actually, i guess if i really want to noe who's my real friends...i guess i'll noe if i really haf to retain this year. :I

Do you think i can pass my a maths tomolo? Sighs.

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Tonite i feel close to you - Stefanie Sun

Close my eyes, and feel your mind
Time has passed, I walked like a shadow
Never knew, what I'm going through
You touched my heart and take my breath away
Whisper on the wind so softly
Let the bright stars fill our dreams with love
Reach for your hand (Your hand is my key)
And you show me the way
Tonight I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I needed friend, you are there by my side
I wish we could stay as one (I wish we could stay forever as one)
All the tears that haunt my past
You promised It'll be better tomorrow
Play that song you and I listened to
and let it gently ease our pain
Tender rain drops from the blue sky
Flowers blooming life's so divine
Like sunlight on a stream (you're holding my key)
You show the world to me
So much love in this beautiful world
Search for the brightest star in the sky
You will find the meaning of love
Don't be afraid (Don't be afraid)
Just be yourself (Just be yourself)
We need this love
I never knew

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i noe she was mad and pissed at me though she didn't say...we had actually wanted to watch the show the both of us wanted...but it was rainning like shit yesterdae...and i got drenched frm top to toe... I sms-ed and said tht if they wanna watch movie, they can go ahead without me. They said it was alrite...ask me to go. Maybe this is not really wad they thot or felt...i guess tht's only a word of politeness...stupid me, really shdn't haf went. Maybe she wasn't convinced tht i didn't want to catch the movie becos i was thoroughly wet...cos by the time i gt to PS, only my pants was wet... or maybe it's just tht they don't understand tht i'm alr freezing cold...tht if i went into the theatre, i wld haf frozen. A lot of things i can't say or wun say, i dun want to get pple to think tht i'm trying to self-pity myself or tht i'm trying to gain pityness...no i am not. But if tht's wad pple want to think, like wad more can i say or do ?

I've really been thinking quite a bit this few days....i'm always so easily bothered by wad pple say or think bout me. Maybe i shd change, maybe i really shd.

Went back for a.maths todae....hmmm, my god, i realised i gt a thousand and one things tht i've alr forgotten hw to do~! *Faints*

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All the love i haf in me is gone

i dun understand. The words she said are resounding...so badly...again and again. I just can't forget wad i said and wad she said. I dun understand. WHY is it tht pple always MISUNDERSTAND me for who I AM...

I cldn't concentrate on my paper at all todae...the words and the voice are just there, right beside my ears....they just kept repeating themselves...can't even read like anything properly? Can't think properly...nearly died....cld haf killed myself.

One of the moody and emotional days. There are reasons to this... i just haf so many feelings nw, hatred, guilty, sadness, loneliness esp. The ache in my heart is killing me. I dunno why, but i felt extreme loneliness... Y? I dunno. Dun understand... sometimes things are better left unsaid. I feel like dying...i feel like screaming, i feel like punching, i just feel lonely. I've gone nuts.

Stood outside class and looked at the scenery alone before the paper...surrounding and environment so peaceful...i wish my life was peaceful too.

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Back.... chem was alrite... hope tht i'm alrite...but oh man...i tell u, i dunno where i got my blurness frm~!!! I wasn't blur last time one k~!!! I noe...mixed wif "wrong company" of friends...ahahaha, all of them damn blur one, gladys, audris, amelia....-.-' blur like siao... hahaha there, i got more answer...hehehe

Took cab home again just nw...den very funny...the uncle damn friendly or wad... haha, the moment i entered, he offered me Todae...so i started reading and like 2 mins later...he offered me another STREATS.... faints...haha, do i look like i love reading so much ? Hmmmss... beats me...

Ok, 3 more subjects, 4 more papers to go~!!!!!!!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..... CAN"T WAIT CAN'T WAIT... hahaha.

SS
Chinese paper I
Physics Paper I
Emaths (FAINTS)
Chemistry
History

Physics+Chem Paper II

Chinese paper II

Amaths

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4 more~!!

Whhheeee...i haf 4 more chapters to go for chem...though it sounds little, it's actually a lot of pages.........-.-' Haiz....hopefully i can finish in time to be able to practice my 10 yr series....

acidic oxide reacts wif water to give acids
acidic oxide reacts wif base to give eh... salt and water...

To test for chloride, add nitric acid then add silver nitrate solution
To test for iodide, add nitric acid den lead(II) nitrate
To test for sulphate, add nitric acid den barium nitrate solution
To test for carbonates, add hydrochloric acid
To test for nitrate, add sodium hydroxide den aluminum power. warm

When no precipitate in Sodium hydroxide --> Sodium or Potasium (No smell) or Ammonium (got smell)

Dissolves in excess sodium hydroxide --> No: Calcium Yes: Aluminium, Zinc, Lead(II)

When no precipitate in aqueous ammonia --> Ammonium or calcium

Dissolves in excess aqueous ammonia hydroxide --> Yes: Zinc No:Aluminium, lead (II)

Acidic oxides --> Sulphur Dioxide SO2
Sulphur Trioxide SO3
Carbon Dioxide CO2
Phophrus Oxide P4O10

Basic Oxides--> All metals oxide

Amphoteric oxides --> Aluminium oxide Al203
Zinc Oxide ZnO2

An acid is a substance that hydrogen ions as the only positive ions in water

During boling and melting, energy is gained.
During freezing and condensation, energy is given out

Necleon Number = Proton + Neutrons
.:.Protons = Electrons

Isotopes are atoms of the same number with different number of neutrons

Covelent bonds --> Sharing of electrons
Ionic --> Transfer of electrons

Covelent compounds: -Low melting & boiling point
-Volatile
- Cannot conduct electricity
-Soluble only in organic solvents

Ionic compounds: High melting and boiling point
Conducts electricity in molten form
Soluble in water

Lalalala....

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I just came bck frm a weddin dinner...i'm so freaking out nw...didn't touch my book~!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! SOMEONE GOT TO KEEP ME AWAKE TONITE!!!!

Dinner was ok...some very distant relatives whom i've never seen in my life...had a nice talk wif my cousin...she rawks...hahaha, and my god ma and god pa is so funny, they cldn't stop bickering! Funny lah... aniwae, had a "date" with my cousin, i'm gonna teach her swimming after her exams and we're going karaoke singing~!!!!!! Whhhhheeeee...

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I can't wait

5 more papers i can't wait~!

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I still prefered my old template...sobs

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a new skin~! Heh...how's this ?! My god...i'm unforgivable~!!! I'm supposed to sleep and studyyyyyyyy~!

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SHIT~!!! What happened to my blog.........all my things are goneeeeeeeeeeeeee....my tag boarddddddddd..... grrrrrr

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I nearly died todae ok~! Had lit paper early in the morning, was supposed to be in school by 8. Thot since i was taking a cab, dun haf to leave the house so early, so i left only at 7.30. Madness. It was pouring cats and dogs... waited for 15 mins and there was like no CAB!!!! Not a single one ok...like wad the hell ?! Where haf all the taxis in singapore died off to?!

Then called TIBS...my gawd...their service was bad bad bad bad bad.... haha, they put me on hold for 5 mins, and when they got back to me, they told me they can't find a taxi and asked me to wait for another few mins?!!! Like hello...by the time i wait and by the time the cab come, i dun haf to take my paper alr... i nearly screamed into the fone due to my anxiety and due my mother standing beside and hurrying me...u noe tht kind of things mother do?! Thanks goodness at tht time, a COMFORT cab came, and can u believe it... i ran all the way out and stopped the cab and my mother was screaming after me...kao...she think i was gonna kill myself or something ?! Hahahas...madness... luckily my school was somewhere nearby.... i reached school at 7.55...5 mins before the paper shd actually start...when i reached the entrance, i sprinted like hell in the rain to my class...by the time i reached class, i was panting like a mad dog, and thanks goodness Mrs Alex. only just entered the class.... haha, but i wasn't the latest, there were actually 2 other pple whol were teeny weeny bit later to me, and i can't believe tht CECILIA was actually earlier than moi~ Haha...

Mondae-chemistry, tuesdae-history... can u believe i haven't even touch my books yet?! I just came home frm Macs wif my mother...hahaha, i'm STUFFED...toking bout being stuffed, it reminded me of a "joke" ms shanthi told my jr.

Ms Shanthi: I am stuffed (after having lunch together)
Friend: Oh, are you from turkey?
Haha, damn lame...teachers ???? -.-'....

I'm gonna take a nap. will mug late into the nite todae =) Can't wait till exams over.

Social Studies
Chinese Paper I
Physics Paper I
Literature Paper I + Paper II
E.maths (FAintS)
Chemistry --> Monday
History --> Tuesday
Physics + Chem Paper II (MCQ) -->Thursday
Chinese =D -->Friday
A.maths --> Monday

I'M FREE

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MY GODDDDDDDDDDD~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!! I'm GONNA PULL OUT ALL MY HAIR SOOOOON>~~!!!!!!!!! MATHS IS DRIVING ME NUTS!!! I HATE ALL THE ANGLES THINGI~!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

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Just came home frm physics...wah...why the paper like so difficult liddat?!!! AH SHIT lah.... make a couple of mistakes which i shdn't had...damn, i just wish i pass......

MATHS and LITERATURE tomolo...wad rubbish.........

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Like wth, i was supposed to PON todae but all thnx to MRS LEE....grrr, cos i gt oral todae, i'm the last batch alr, which consist of only 4 pple, and i'm afraid tht if i dun go, she will not let me take my oral. She said tht the oral is supposed to help us pull up our english grades~ nw u noe hw bad our english can be....grrrr.... aniwae, i think i screwed up my compo, mrs lee was laughing at me...but hmmm, she seems to laugh at practically everyone, oh well who cares! Haha

SS tomolo, kinda prepare, hah, tht's like the only thing i've prepared so far ?! What i'm most worried bout nw is my eng(though it's alr over long ago), history, lit and e.maths. And i tell u, our school is CARZY or "sumpthin"...they put lit together with e.maths on fri~!!!!! WAh......... die die -.-' i'm kinda like rushing for lit.... and noe wad, i haven't even started on my physics which is this thurs!!! Ok i'm mad.

I met 2 BITCHES on the bus...argh. Bullying a girl frm their school, asking her to stand here and then there, and i was even dragged into it, as in verbally! They were like saying "stand here abit more lah, otherwise u may squash tht girl(me, cos i was standing in a corner.)" Wah liew, i think they thought i was malay or something, dun understand chinese, but too bad i did and i stared at them, nearly thrashing them, then they just quickly looked awae, hahaha... i tell u, one of these days i'm just so gonna get bashed up~ hahaha -.-

Ok...better go, take a nap and wake up and study study study~ i can't wait till exams are overrrrrrr....wish me the best of luck~! Heee =)

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I realised tht trying to run awae frm reality really leads u to nowhere, tht's y i'm facing it nw. Also, i realised tht it's alrite to face it all alone, dun be to dependent towards someone...face it urself, u'll feel a sense of "achievement" when u overcome it.

Tht's y nowadays i've been trying to solve my own problems myself, i hardly tell anyone things nw, realised tht i've been growing up a little, and i'm glad. I used to be dependent on friends, but nw i ain't animore. =)

I wonder if there's anyone whom we can really trust in this world, i just realised tht i can't even count on my own sisters, freako pple, can't even do a small favour for me...grrr...

aniwae, wed my ss paper, hope i can finish in time =I

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I want to know my marks nw...the suspense is KILLING ME.

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Man...it's alr like 1.30 am nw and i'm still awake?! Like wad the hell...there's still school tomolo~ i'm tired and i want to get some slp, but the thing is...the moment i close my eyes, all i can see is my ENGLISH paper...oh man...this is freaking me out.

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GaMeOvEr

All thanks to summary

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Rebuke-Sharply critisize or tell off
Defiant- Boldy disobedient
Fatigues-Extreme tiredness
Incessant- Never stopping
Scowling- Angry or bad-tempered expression
Bickering- Arguing over unimportant matter
Trival- Of little values and importance
Entrusted- Making somebody responsible for doing something
Oblivious- Unaware
Credibility- Ability to trust
Obscenity- Deal with sexual matters in an offensive way
Explicit- Clearly, detailed and easily understood
Awe- Feeling of respect mixed with fear
Perceived- Becoming aware of things
Spontaneous- opened, natural and relaxed
Dwindled- Fade, lessen
Boisterous- Lively and high-spirited
Myriad- A large number
Essentially- Necessary
Mulled- Thought about something at length
Ado-Trouble or fuss
Blissful- Filled with happiness
Relish- Great enjoyment or anticipation
Tirade- A long and angry speech
Attain- Succeed at
Defect- Imperfection or fault
Extracted- Obtaining something from someone unwilling to give
Hindsight- The understanding of an event after it has happened
Forlornly- Pitifully lonely and sad.
Fleeting- Fast and nimble
Remorse- Deeply regretted or guilty
Muster- gather together
Inferior- of low quality
Accustomed- getting used to
Chided- tell someone off
Convictions- firm belief
Permissive- allowing a lot of freedom
Succumed- Giving in to pressures and temptations
Pompous- arrogantly showing tht one has high opinion of himself
Shoddy- Badly made or done / dishonest or immoral
Perserverance- Continual in doing something in spite of its difficulty
Crucial- Critical
Dilemma- Difficult situation of having to make a choice between situations
Abolish- putting a stop to laws and customs
Discerning- Recognise of becoming aware off
Frugal- Careful in the use of money and food
Contemplating- Think profoundly and at length

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I believe tht after tomolo, i'll disappear for some time......a long period of isolation. Byebye, wish me all the best.

Counting down: 14hrs more

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my gawd...i can feel my doom dae drawing near...sighs...i can foreseeeeee my future and i feel tht i'm in the worst predicament den ever nw, i'm feeling so apprehensive =S

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Went out just nw...hehe, *naughty girl*, jiabao poned afternoon study todae...lol, so hilarious recalling it, we were running, dodging and hiding frm jo teo...like those nintendo games i used to play... haha, just when we can leave, it started pouring, but we managed to get to the mrt station aniwae...

Went bugis, like as usal...actually wanted to go suntec one, den can't remember y we decided nt to, wanted to go there cos actually wanted to buy tht tortoise pencil case we saw wif gladys tht dae for her bdae...den wanted to buy tht shirt for her but we no money, so we decided tht she'll buy first and we'll wrapped the ang bao or money and give it to her as a present. All these were meant as a surprise till tht stupid big mouth and blur block pamela told her -.-'

Went eat yoshinoya, yumps, haha, it seems like this has become our all time fav, cheap, nice and filling. =P After tht, we went to take neos...haha, i like the neos, gladys looks cute in one of them. Haha... ok, i feel tht i can't tok animore alr...nitey world...

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For the first time, i saw her praying. For the first time in my life haf i actually seen her closed her eyes...wondering if she's praying for all of us, praying tht we'll all be able to pull thru this...pass all our exams, esp eng. Haha, maybe she's just praying for herself, but to me, it seems like she's praying for us.

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*Yawns* I'm tired.... -o-

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it's been a long time... sighs, feeling damn stressed nw, forever feel tht i've not enuff slp...grrrrr...not enuff slp, not enuff time and everything's not enuffffff, money no enuff too~! Nv seems to be able to pay off my bills or get wad i want... sighs...

bear wif me, i need something to complain to. i haf like so many subjects more to cover and god, i'm so damn bloody worried for my english...wad if i fail ?! Wad's more, english's not the only one. My MATHS too..... sighs. I can't fail e.maths, otherwise i'll haf to drop a, whihc i dun want to.

Was standing at the window just nw, suddenly felt so nostalgic and all the good memories flashed back, thot of so many things, missed those happy time, wish i cld just turn back time.

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Heh...school's good todae...i didn't fall asleep again~ =D Had maths first thing in the morning, it was alrite lah, nothing very fun happened but oh mann...chinese was gooooood!!!! Haha, it's so funny...i get hyper damn easily, all my friends noe tht, and they call me crazy when i go hyper.

We were hafing ting xie... den it's like tian xie han zi tht kind of ting xie... haha, den it's damn retarded loh, the answers can be in some of the sentences?! Haha, den me, pamela and mun whye were like "wah liew wei.....damn chicken can~!" Haha, den Mrs Seng was like laughing at us and called us XIAO ZHANG (arrogant)...haha, den she asked her to go out and write since we were like so confident. But i didn't go out in the end... only pamela and mun whye did, and man~ i was sooooooooo malu-ated...ahaha, cos of one STUPID careless mistake, i scored only 19/20~ DAMN chicken banana backside.....grrrrr, den Mrs seng was laughing at me, everyone was laughing...haha-.-' Then Mrs seng wanted us to read a sentence filled wif emotions. And i got so excited and i was bouncing on my chair again~ heh.

During chemistry, was trimming my wallet when mrs tay was going thru some QA questions... haha, realised tht Gladys very cold to me these few daes.......awwwwwwwwwwwwww...she doesn't love me alr~! Haha, ok, i'm cock toking =P Went to the toilet during chem, it was POURING CATS AND DOGS...eh shd i say pouring cows and goats ?! Ok i've gone mad. Hehe...it was freezing cold ok...washed my hands and i felt frozen, went to use the hands dryer and i felt the warmth...wah so shiok, den i went nuts agains, i was doing the "toilet dance" as i called it. I was jumping and jumping in excitement, god noes why am i so hyper todae...omg, i suddenly feel like rachel law~! haha... On our way back, gladys was like freezing cold, den she bo jacket, asked me to share wif her...i hugged her and i shared my jacket HOOD wif her...lol, we looked like some 2 spastic walking together liddat, it was so funny i swear...

After school, were walking to st mike's canteen, den was showing audris wad we did, the jacket thingi, so we demostrated again on our way there, and Mrs siow show us and said "AIYOH...the two of u siao ah ?!" Haha...den we burst out laughing, and later, when we reached the canteen, we saw the canteen was FLOODED wif pple, and tht spastic gladys was like asking "why so many many pple ah?" in a half indian and cheena accent as she calls it...haha, den she somemore got actions! '_'...but before she knows it, she saw ms yue coming her way she she said so loudly "OH SHIT!" Haha, ms yue looked and me and then at gladys's paiseh face and immediately knew tht she've done something to embarass herself again so she was like half laughing, half shaking her head...hahaha, cecila, audris and i were laughing our heads off. I mean like wad's new ?

Went back to cls for afternoon study,on my way back, met my junior, asked me to buy dunno wad spring onions tht they've planted in sch, in order to be a SUPPORTIVE senior, i bought it from her loh, haha but i gave the spring onions to audris instead, den was teasing her about cooking all dishes of spring onion for her husband...haha cos of her tofu meal tht dae =P... When was in cls. SOMEBODY had to keep appearing in front of me which really DISGUST me and TURN ME OFF...argh can't stand her, can't believe i'm feeling this way bout her, we used to be CLOSE....guess she really changed? I'm not the only one who said it alrite?! Most of the people i've asked agrees wif me. Anywae, can see tht really turned off expression on my face, my friends all told me before tht when i dun like somebody, it can be damn easily seen on my face, over expressive i guess? =p

Studied my physics, cos got CA tomolo. Heh...i think gladys is getting quite old, cos she keeps repeating wad pple say and keep asking wad has already JUST been said, but she doesn't noe it...poor girl...think i concussed her too much liao, so sorry girl. Then elsa damn spastic, she was imitating annabel chow's disgusting and psychotic behaviour and we were like laughing our heads off...oh well, it's indeed a fun fun dae todae~

As usual, walked out wif amelia after afternoon study, sad to say it's becos she've got no one to walk wif tht's y she come look for me...sighs + sobs...her darling jean doesn't come for afternoon study, so she come finds me... haha, *heartbroken*... nemo hw cld u do this to me?!!! Haha, kidding lah. Was pissing the hell outta her, she's a very NICE and FUN person to piss if u're looking for sum1 to piss...damn cute lah... =P Haha, she got up the bus looking damn pissed...I had a "pleasant dae todae" =D

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School's rather fun todae... heh...somehow, though i slept quite late yesterdae, i was able to keep myself awake during lessons todae~ *JiaBao Beams*...haha.

Had physics first thing in the morning, heh, marked our assignments and we learnt bout waves...haha, the highest point of the wave is called a crest, den mr chan asked wad's the lowest point called and guess wad i said?!! Ahaha, i said breast-.-' hehe, rhymes heh? But of cos i didn't say it out loud to him =I Den gladys in retardation mode todae...haha, she kept laughin at the joke only after school?! Which is like dunno hw many hours later...haha-.-'

Den it was maths, we got a new cadet teacher following ms yue around...oh pls pls i beg...dun give us any more cadet teacher, one each year is already more than enuff...esp when it's so near to exams nw...pls pls... i really dun want anymore cadet tcher! *Cross fingers* Maths was fun todae, learned bout permutations~ Haha, one of my friend's so funny, she told ms yue tht permutations sound like a fancy way of hair perming...ahahaha... den my GOOD friend, or shd i say my maid cecilia, funnier still. One of the question said something tht 2 boys cannot sit next to each other, than cecilia asked ms yue if 3 boys can sit next to each other or not since they only mentioned 2 and not 3...haha, den at first ms yue was like also stunned, but later she jokily scolded cecilia and asked cecilia to go ask mrs lee if 3 boys can sit next together if 2 boys can't sit next to each other...ahahahaha

WEnt for recess, during recess, went to find Cheng and weng laoshi to show them the mooncake fotos, haha, we were all laughing at how RETARDED we looked. =D After which we went back for chinese, man, I was indeed rite, Mrs Seng said my performance for oral was rather poor yesterdae, sighs...commented tht i shdn't be getting this kind of results since i'm a performer... sighs sighs sighs...

Had History, history was as usalllllll equalllllllly boring...sighs, but guess it wasn't so so bad todae, at least i didn't keep wanting to dose off. Had A.maths todae, 4 periods of a.maths on wednesdaes, but ms yue changed one of the period to e.maths. I dun really understand permutations, it's so confusing, haha, but i think it's quite fun and challenging~ I swear i'l get at it~! Learnt frequency for e.maths, it's ok lah, just started.

And finally school's over...but we still had to stay for afternoon study... Went for lunch. Finished eating and went back up to cls, my classmates and i were watching happy tree friends, tht gross sadistic shows...haha...we were all screaming and shouting in cls...super gross i swear.

Finally we got down to business, studied my chem, nw at least more or less i understand my QA and ionic equation better, thanks to my seniors, eileen, siewping, lishan and mayhui~ hee...they're really a useful lot...heh heh...after tht, did my a.maths hw, understood a little better nw, but yep, still kinda blur, believe if i do more, i'll get the hang of it. Were fooling around during he last few mins of afternoon study, can't remember wad i did but i think i ganged up wif elsa to suan audris of something, den tht idiot, she got so mad and kicked my chair, resulting me to fall, wah liew, it like so damn malu-ing can?! How cld she do this to her friend...grrr.... and u noe wad's next? Haha, was palying wif gladys, can't remember wad i did again, but i was packing my bag getting ready to go and was balanced on one leg, sen she suddenly pushed me and i FLEW to the next table...wahahaha, it was so hilarious i cldn't stop laughing, it's not a very hard push, it was just tht i stood on one leg and her push came unprepared so i FLEW...haha...i laughed till i cried man...aniwae, dunno wad i did but it seems tht i've OFFENDED this 2 women...hahaha....grrrrrr....

Walked out wif amelia again, denise and i were like suaning her thruout..so funny... oh well, afterall, wad's new? =P

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Back to school again, exams are in 2 weeks time (eng) and 3 weeks plus for the others to begin. Sighs, i think i'm suffering from "jet-lag"...hahaha, cos i still haven't swap back my time yet~! I'm still sleeping at my holiday bedtime k?!!! I've been sleeping at around 2 these 2 daes?! Lala, den during these 2 days, i've been sleeping during both my double lit class-.-' muahaha

Todae did compo for chinese, as usual, was toking toking awae, but haha, chinese so funny todae, pamela and cecilia didn't come, cecilia's late so we thot she wasn't coming, den Mrs seng was like saying no wonder the class so peaceful becos these two IDIOTS aren't here, and the class burst into laughter.

After tht was PE...lalala, was slacking awae ok, cos no "government", TJL was supervising PFT peeps, haha, she actually wanted us to run 15 rounds, 2 sets of 30 push ups, 2 sets of 30 sit ups and 2 sets of 30 dunno wad =P...hahaha, but we all slacked awae~! I ran 2 rounds, sprinted one round and walked the rest, and needless to sae, i didn't even do any sets of anything~! Hah, tht's me ;)!

The next lesson we had was lit, as i said, i really slept thru the two periods of lit, den it was maths, nothing happened, maths is usually boring nowadays. But english was fun....oh man, we were giggling and laughing our heads off man~we were required to do a compo againnnnnn...den this compo was something related to maid agency, and we had to recommand 2 maids to a friend, muahaha, and we named our maids CECILIA and AMELIA, haha, they were so pissed when they found out, but amelia was laughing awae when we told her, though god noes why, ask her, she's wierd~ LOL... =X And oh, aud has got a new nick, given by mrs lee, haha, somehw i realised, all her nicks are bird-related...muahaha, and her new nick is called OSTRICH?! Haha...dunno why mrs lee called her tht, most prob it's becos of the way she tried to hid herself BEHIND A PIECE OF PAPER from me...then mrs lee was laughing and said she looked like an OSTRICH...hahahaha, well, not a bad name, i'm starting to like it already. Haha.

After school we had oral, my god, i just hope i bleedy passsss.... it's like for my reading, i didn't started off well~?! And after my 2nd or 3rd sentence, mrs seng graded me already?! Oh man, and my new topic was so tough, about shd singapore's govt broaden the broadcast of dialect speaking show in singapore? And i think i toked cock, and my normal topic weren't like any better, it's "ai hu xiao dong wu"...sounds easy, but i feel i was also toking cock, i dunno if i've gone out of point?! Oh no... haha...-.-' god bless me.

Went for afternoon study, ms yue was in cls...didn't noe, when i opened the door, i nearly wanted to scream to my friends, but luckily i didn't otherwise i wld haf been so dead... haha...after afternoon study, walked out wif amelia, haha, this girl, she's so FUNNY i tell u, she was telling me tht during her oral, she went erm erm erm, and mr seng gave her tht typical looks of hers...haha, it doesn't sound funny here lah, muz tell her to tell u herself, she's such a joker? Erm erm erm, aniwae, erm erm erm, all the best lah? =P Ok...i'm so gonna be killed when she sees this.

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Holidaes are coming to an end...boy, i feel so guilty~ hardly touched my books~!!!!! *SMACKS* Jiabao is a bad bad girl...haha...studied a teeny weeny bit todae, studied 2 chapters of physics... yeah only 2 but at least it's SOMETHING... man i tell u i'm such a PIG... i woke up at 12 todae and i went back to nap at 2pm and got up at 5?!!! Stupid me...this is total madness.

Aniwae, yep, i celebrate mooncake festival yesterdae.......after like 2 years, i finally had the chance to be a "kid" again. Haha...thankew dad and erhem, *mum*? =P Yep, was at serangoon playing, it's so so fun i tell ya...lalalala, i'm gonna do it again next yr~! It was also my sister bdae yesterdae, haha, HAPPY BDAE DA JIE~! MUACK MUACK~!

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Lala, came back alr. Spent the whole dae out. Met up wif eileen...haha, like at last? It's been a long time since i last seen her, miss her man. Usual spot, at mos, surprisingly met my milk mother, siew ping, wahahahaha, it's been a long long time since i last saw this woman man...she was doing her pw. Eileen and i started mugging, cldn't really get a lot of work done, haha, cos tht's just us. At ard 3, siewping came over and joined us. Haha, we were talking talking talking, not mentioning studying, den my ah bu, bern came over and join us...lol, like finally? One whole family reunite after like dunno hw many decades. Haha, actually nt really also, there are other members who weren't present.

It was freezing call in mos, maybe tht's y i caught my call ? Dear...haha, my resistance too sickness is so lousy nw~ i was still wearing jacket just nw? *Shakes head*, running a slight fever nw, was having a headache, but took panadol, feeling much better alr. =)

Went to watch Pirates already, i's ok lah, i guess i wldn't exactly say it's fantastic, or shd i blame the horrible seatings? Haha...

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the world's smiling

Guess i used my day rather wisely todae? Haha, ok, was late for maths extra class, in the end had to take cab, liew, damn broke already loh, liddat i cannot buy my cds already~~~~~ like wth...NVM! Aniwae, went back to school for maths class, liew, it was like damn long can ???? 10-1?! 3 whole damn hours, total madness, started on matrices, and we're already like 3/4 finished? All tht we haven't covered is the problems solving part~

After maths, went to KFC for lunch wif han and cecilia, madness, the queue was like wad?! Then there's this stupid CLUMSY secondary boy...my god.....it's like he SPILT 2 cups of drinks then he was like *blanks* "wad am i supposed to do ?" Den walked back to the counter wif his tray dripping?!! I was like trying to SLAM from him and he was like coming closer and closer to me...my god...i haven't met anyone stupider...there wasn't even like a SORRY?! He just looked BLUR...like "wad on earth is going on?!" Hello mr...u've just spilt ur drinks...-.-'

Yep, yanhan and cecilia and i were crapping like nuts... tok tok tok, till 3, den after tht, we were heading for mos, and i saw this DORY lantern, my god......it was like SOOOOOOOO cute...i wanted to get it, but dunno if i shd, and it was only like 5.50...nv knew lanterns were like so cheap...and decided tht maybe i shd come bck and get it later....but noe wad?!!! When i went back, my dory was..... GONE...... SOBS.... *chicken banana backside*Seriously, i think i have this madness for lanterns, i just love lanterns.....lalalala...since i was born, my godma always give me one every yr...till i was sec one, cos my mother stopped her frm buying, said i was too old~~~~~!!! So nw i haf 13++...i'm darn proud of my lantern collections k~ I swear i am...lalala, i dun care, i'm gonna buy one more this yr, for myself....*LANTERNS* LOL.......

Cecilia left, then han and i went to mos to study. She studied her chinese oral and i did CHEM the WHOLE dae...like wad the hell ?! I DUN GEET IT... like wadever, it's like sometimes i get it, and when i do it again, it seems like i dun get it, arghs, like wadeverrr... But yep, we had fun there, haha, i love studying wif han, guess she's like the only person whom i can really really study wif...so yep... thanks han for spenfing the dae wif me =)

After studying, met up wif my senior, my ahbu, Bernice...heh...so long nv seeeee her...made her come all the wae from home...haha, i attraction power really damn power sia =) She finally passed me my bdae present...belated belate present...haha, erm, to be exact, half a yr later...lol... ripped over my present, and the sight of me doing tht was some how hilarious i gues??? They were like laughing their heads off but i dun understand?~ And they started laughing again when i pasted the stickers on my jackets, ok wadever, HAHA, guess i was spastic, but i like to make pple laugh, cos it brightens my dae too... i miss my ah bu...... so long nv tok to her~!!!!!

Sent Yan han off, den went shopping for awhile wif bern, she got her key pads, den kept complaining tht they looked funny when they're jolly well not...-.-' she treated me bubblesss tea....well i said i'll treat her, but she insisted so yep. =) Went to find her shoes, but she cldn't find the pair she wanted, so we found some place and sat down, tok tok tok toking awae, show lightning flashing...but continued sitting outside toking, den eileen called, haha, had fun teasing her.

Oh noe wad noe wad, i passed by the cinema just nw, and i show tht zhaowei's movie, warriors of heaven and earth is GONNA BE SHOWN IN SINGAPORE SOOOOOOON!!!!! *JUMPS*!!! Was sooooo excited tht bern thot i've gone nuts.Can't wait can't wait.......gonna see my chio bu's face on screen again ............... lalalalalalala....ok, i think i've really gone nuts, somehw dunno y, was feeling nuts.

Took cab home again, cos it was real late. Yep. Called pet...had fun toking to herrrrr...she was like so funny ?! Mumbling mumblin to herself, sometimes can't even figure out wad she's saying but well, really enjoyed toking to her, and glad to hear her laughin, haha, really brightens up my dae to see my dad finally laughin... dad, stay cool yeah, dun always look so frustrated and sad, i'll always be here for u k ?! *promise* loveya.

*a promise is a promise* - smirks

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Wheeeeee......hw time flies, and it's almost a week since i last updated my blog, has been darn busy~ and finally, it was all over last nite~ everything went well yesterdae, and i had so much fun! Anywae, so many things had happened this week, so let's see if i can remember them all and put it all out here.

Wednesdae: Felt so disillusioned this dae...nv felt so down for like so long, it's like a second attack during this week...the maths ca...oh my god...i nearly died........................................................................i could feel myself going all weak over when i handed my paper up, and never in my life had i wished tht maths cld be over soon, i've always enjoyed maths, but todae, i cldn't wait for it to be over. When it was over, i stormed out of class,wif edrea following behind..sometimes, i feel tht when i need my friends to be here for me, they aren't.When it was time to go home, 2 of them cld actually just tell me, take care, byebye, when my head was burried under my jacket. Is this wad i called my good friends? One of them cld actually blamed me for nt toking to her somemore. I dunno anymore. Had rehearsal todae, man, she did so much to cheer me up a little, without her, maybe i cld haf just died. Met another her at the bus stop. During cls when i was looking so sad, so frustrated wif myself, she didn't even seemed to care or bother or perhaps even notice, when i saw her at the bus stop, i just smiled a little at the bus stop and boarded the bus. Usually if i see her, i'll be happy, but todae, i felt i've got no face to see her.

My fishy mother sms me, asking if i was feeling alrite. She said so much to motivate me, spur me on and encouraged me, man, i really dunno wad i wld do without her. Thanks man.

Thurs: Feeling slightly better...but was still quite shaken from yesterdae's incident. CLDDS todae. It was quite fun, did alot of last min work, my bow and arrows are finally ready. =) When everything was done, it was already 7pm. Met my dad pet, den went for dinner together wif us, me and weng, her treat, thanks dad.

Fridae: Finally, it's the dae~ anywae, before tht, i got back my maths. OMG... I ACTUALLY PASSED! I GRIEVED for NOTHING on wednesdae, damn ass man. By 3+...we all started bathing and stuff...quite fun bathing in school lah, den by 4, we went back to the conference rm and prepared ourselves. I was getting nervous man, oh boy. We started hugging one another, lol, it seems like it has become a habbit already for us pple...everytime when we haf to perform, we always hug one another. Weng laoshi, cheng laoshi and mrs seng all hugged me...haha...but still i feel damn scared...haha, although it wasn't my first time on stage.....maybe it just some kind of phobia i guess...haha. When the time came, my god i nearly FREAKED out...haha, i made quite a number of mistakes due to over nervousness but ahahaha, no one actually notice due to the fact i was happily smiling awae =) *PHEWS* I didn't wear my spects up, so i cldn't find my friends...haha...aniwae, everything was a success~ HEEEEEEEEEEEE...haha, mrs seng praised me! LOL... We went back to the conference room and goodness me, we looked as though we've gone mad~ all sort of crap came out and we just played and played. We took lots of photos too, and weng laoshi was making fun of my friends, esp aud.

After tht, we went back to class to get the sparklers...it was eeerie man i tell u...it's so dark and the doors were all closed and stuff...aniwae, after tht, we went to the basketball to play candles and stuff...haha, glad was so scared of the sparklers tht Weng and i was practically chasing her rd the whole basketball court...haha, den we lit up as many candles as we possibly can and dat stupid weng blew it all offfffffffffffffffffff....grrrrrr...hahaha, denw e relighted it and she started singing happy bdae to herself~ mad woman....lol, but it "inspired" us to play a game...we're supposed to go round singing birthdae song to everyone present in the order of our birthdates and so we started wif pamela, yanhan, weng, me, aud, glad and then ed~ haha, after we finish singing the bdae song each time, we're supposed to c who can blow of the most candle, and my god, pamela and weng are such pple wif extreme LONG BREATH~! Haha...dey blew out so many of the flames can?~ *PENGS* and the best gotta be yanhan...lol, cos she only blew off a few...lol...we were all laughing at her...my god, actually we weren't supposed to play wif the candles one...and weng laoshi was supposed to go round banning pple, but muahaha, she ended up sitting down playing and laughing at us instead~ lol....hope nothing bad will happen to her~ after tht, it was time for all of us to go, but the CLDDS pple had to stay back and clear the stuff...so yep...i really enjoyed my dae man, she had made it all fun for us, motivating us to strive harder~ after everything was finally cleared, we went macs together......

It was a super energy drainning dae but i really enjoyed myself.

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OK...it was quite a happy day for me at first...was mugging for my chinese CA tomolo, den my HP rang, said she's calling from TCS...at first i was like huh ? Then she repeated herself and said she's calling from TCS...i was like shocked...and den she continued to say tht i'm selected and wants me to go for audition...man, i was so happy and shocked. The first person i told was weng laoshi~ haha, was so happy and mad, and she was laughing at me... audition will be on sat, so scary, hope all goes well for me~ =)

Ok, but before i know it, i'm in a terrible terrible mood again, all thanks to my mother, my real mother~ wah liew, does she always have to use such harsh words on me ? If i'm really such a piece of shit in ur eyes like you say, you didn't have to give birth to me~ it seems tht everything i've done nv seemed to make u happy or proud, in fact, they all seemed be look like thrash in ur eyes. Give me a break. You said u didn't cherish me, fine, be it tht way, i've used to this kind of teatment alrd. Since pri 3, i've always been hearing these kind of words, i'm growing immune to it already. U wish i wasn't ur daughter, sometimes i wish i wasn't too. I thot things were changing for the better, but damn it, i dun think so. Many times i've tried tolerating ur unreasonable demands, but u nv seems to appreciate or realised all tht i've done. Sometimes, there are things i did which i thot wld made u proud, but all u said is tht they're nonsense. U always claimed tht i dun love u, but tell me, hw do u expect me to show u tht i do when u're always treating me this wae? I love u k mummy, but the fact u're always saying all these harsh words to me make me feel further and further awae frm u ? Alrd we're like not very close? And if u're constantly doing these to me, i wonder if i'll ever die.

I wanted to cry just nw, but i told myself nt to, big girls dun cry. I muz be brave. Tell me wad i'm supposed to do, wad exactly shd i do to make u proud, cos i really dunno.

Sometimes, i really wish tht i've already grew up, so tht i can start working and nt spend a single cent from her anymore. Just nw, she even said i cld move out if i jolly well want. I wish i could. Money is such a problem, hw far can i go without money ? Sometimes i really wish i could run awae from home...maybe one of these daes, i really shd. Sometimes, enuff is really enuff.

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shanthi's teacher's dae

After I've "visited" weng laoshi, went up to look for ms shanthi~ haha, didn't even need to call for her and she's already busy wif so many students! Haha, guess she just a very very well-liked teacher in school, haha, and i'm not surprised either...she's not only fun but she's so damn caring too... lol~!

When she saw me, she was like HELLO *darling*... lol...erm, tht's hw she always addresses me and my friends! Lol, she gave me a hug, and we squeezed one another soooo tightly...awwwww...i really miss her man...miss her jokes, her threats to motivate us to study and stuff...haha, well...all good things don't last i guess haha...



Anywae, it was such a co-incidence, i gave her a purple teacher's day cushion and juz nice, she was wearing a purple shirt~ lol...i didn't even notice and she was the one who in fact told me...haha, also i guess ms shanthi really know me sooo well ? Cos rite after when we finished toking, she said, "OK! C'mon let's go, time for foto taking sessions!" Lol -.-'... even i was so shock...haha, hw cld she haf noe?! Guess maybe she knows tht i always haf my cam ard or something ?Haha...so swt man, most IJ teachers are damn funky~! I really really love them to bits.

After our "foto taking session", there's like a whole swarm of pple qeueing, waiting to haf a word wif her or something~ haha...i took my leave and told her i'll tok to her again some other dae... lalalalala~

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Weng's teacher dae

Ok...so tht's ms yue's part...after tht, went to look for Weng laoshi~ haha...i think ah she like happi until abit ding dong todae~muz be collected a lot of present! Lol...after i gave her her pressies...wah, she like so happy and touched like tht ah tht i got "charged down" immediately...lol...she hugged me~~~!!! So suddenly and tightly and madly~! Lol...it's like i'm nt even prepared for anything liddat~! Total madness!



Haha...gave her a memory lane bear wrapped up in a bouquet, a box of cookie, a teacher's day cushion~ and a card~! Lol...heh...this shd make up for all the times which i didn't give her anything...hopefully she'll really like them...Spent a lot of effort on her pressies this yr~ yesterdae went from shop to shop looking for a suitable present for her...and finally decided to lay my hands on those... =)



Well...we're as crappy as ever...cldn't stop laughing... haha, hmm...i guess this was the best teacher dae for me ? Nv really felt so so happy on teacher's dae before, anywae, i'm so glad tht things betweens us haf resumed again~ lalala....happy teacher's dae weng laoshi~!!!! Muahaha, i can't wait for mooncake festival *smirks* beware~! ;)

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ms yue tcher's dae

Heh...it's teacher's day todae~ i spent a bomb on all of them...but i think it's worth it~! Haha...after so much they've tried to do for us...hmm, i think the most WEI DA career is being a teacher...not doctor or anything but yep, teacher, if there's no teacher, there's no doctors, nurses or wadever~! Although heart pain from the amount i spent, i felt very happy when giving them the present... =D

Started of wif mass todae, it was rather boring...so yep, was busy finding things to do...felt really tired, and nutty, haha, cos slept only at 3am yesterdae~ YAWNS...after mass, we were supposed to go to the court to cheer...but we sneaked back to class =) We slept, we toked, we wrote ms yue's card and and we did some really horny and funny stuff...erhem~lol...saw eileen, was toking to her, den after awhile my ah bu came and we all tok and tok~

Then after some time, my friend screamed cos they saw ms yue...mad pple...lol, like nv see her before... hahaha =X no lah, i guess we're just really eager to give her her present~ i freaked out too and ran into the class to grab all her present when aud and glad ran like mad woman to stop her... cecilia and ed went down together wif me...we were all saying "ms yue!!! Wait can or not!!!!!" Then ms yue kept walking awae frm us...haha, becos she felt reallllllly URGENT! LOL! She needed to go the loo, and we were like behind pestering her...lol. At first i didn't noe wad was going on, only later when gladys said damn loudly "MS Yue NEED TO PEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" Haha, we all burst out laughing...she went into the staffrm to put down all her things...and we siezed the chance to take pic wif the bear~after tht, in order to give her a surprise, i hid the bear behind me...but becos it was so big my size alone cldn't cover the whole thing tht my friend had to join to block it too...haha, u shd haf jus seen the sight man...we formed a horizontal line as though we're like doing crowd control liddat...and we're standing outside the toilet!

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When she came out again, we all laughed and laughed, and hurried her into the toilet...while she was inside, stupid glad kept disturbing her, she kept saying, "aye ms yue, hurry up leh! Come i help u!!!!! Shhhhhhhhhhhh shhhhhhhhh shhhhhhhh...." She kept saying until i think ms yue got damn pek cek and pissed dat she even talked frm the cubicle... "can u let me PEeeeeeeee in PEACEEE?!" Haha, and we burst out laughing again.... when she finally came out, she shook her head and said... "sighs...u all ah~ teacher's dae also cannot let me peeeeee in peace!!" We all kept laughin, still in our horizontal line. Then I asked Cecilia to give her the card first so she can read...lol, at first she didn't want to read in front of us, but we kept asking her to, so she did, den gladys keep telling her cannot read this cannot read dat... so irritating! Lol...i told her to read cecilia's one first cos it was damn crap...i thot of it but made cecilia write it...heh.... it says something like u're a very good teacher and stuff and she cannot give up on us even when we leave IJ....nxt time when we go jc, we'll still come back and ask her F maths...when she read tht, she was like "huh...dun want lah"...cld see she's really really very touched, even though she was like saying dun want lah, u cld she her going all soft inside. Then i told cecilia to add something inside to provoke her...hahaha, "in the first place can u even do it ?" Lol...but she didn't seem to haf any reaction on tht~! Haha...



Then after tht, i was like "OH SHIT! Nw she read the card liao she'll noe wad's her present liao..." cos i forgot we mentioned bout her present in the card, ha, den she was yeah~! Stupid... den i said nvm...i'm sure u'll still haf a surprise! (Becos of te relative huge size). When i took it frm behind my back, she was indeed shocked. "WAHHHHH! So big ah......thankew thankew thankew~ Liddat so big surely very expansive...small one already like hw much..." Haha, glad tht she appreciate our present... den something damn funny happened...cos she kept saying damn big damn big den i think gladys got irritated so she said "aiyah ms yue, it's not as though u're like very small rite?!" Haha...we all BURST out laughing and ms yue did this face -.-' and smack her wif the card we gave...haha, damn funny...and the nxt thing we knew, she was like aiyoh "so heavy so heavy" and together we said, "ms yue! Nt like u very light also rite?!" Haha...den she pissed until she got nothing to say tht she just ignored us. Yep, she was really touched, tht she initiated to hug us! Which is something very rare~! Each hug she gave, it came wif a thank u so much. She hugged Cecilia first, and den me...a real tight squeeze hug =D, den audris, edrea and glad...haha, so funny...dunno why when she saw gladys...the two of them burst out laughing~ haha... anywae, i'm sure gladys erhem... "enjoyed" the hug =X
Haha....den aud so swt, she mentioned to her tht even though i was injured, i still walk miles and miles to get the bear for her, and ms yue for an instant looked so guitly and asked if i was ok or nt~ we talked awhile more about some other stuff and assignments and tht gladys malu-ated me...something which is like so nt true lah~ i felt damn insulted and my pride went down the drain loh...kaooooooooo...argh...aniwae, after tht, she thanked us again and we left. I went to tok to eileen and bern for awhile more before going up. When i went up tht time, she was still there, so i just said, aye ms yue, muz bring it home ah~ haha, den she said yep she will...and she said thankew jiabao~ haha, tht's so warm to heart~!

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Dedication Song:More Than Words

-To all the teacher's in the world, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! I LOVE YA ALL!!!!!! ESP IJ teachers~ u RAWK!-

Saying 'I Love you' is not the words
I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you not to say
But if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do
To make it real then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me 'cuz I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words
More than words
Now that I've tried to talk to you
And make you understand all you have to do
is close your eyes and just reach out your hands

And touch me hold me close
Don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me 'cause I already know

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Oh my god!!! I just came home~! Man...i'm gonna so drop dead...i walked for 5hrs straight non-stop!!! Now my legs totally haven't got any feelings at all... haha, yep

First we went town in search of presents for teacher's dae, the things there are pretty nice and cool, but a little stupid and ex to get for the tchers...so we went down to cityhall...where we spent most of our time...we cool really feel our legs breaking but we kept encouragin ourselves~ for the sake of the teachers!

Finally, after dunno making hw many trips, we got ms yue's presents! Heh ;) I had a tiring but great dae~ thanx cecilia, yanhan, pamela and edrea!

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Went back for cldds rehearsal todae~ heh, glad tht everything went well and everyone tht was needed todae was present! Everything was progressing so fast and smooth...haha, nv in my life in cldds did i remember anything happening liddat! My juniors were awesome, they're terrific~ haha, maybe tht's y we're able to get things done so well this time~!

I was late...so ashamed...as president, how cld i be late? Haha...ok, well, i missed two of my busses. We started off wif reading the script first, when everyone was familiar wif their own life, we started off wif one of the scenes. We added in a few things here and there, and boy, it's hilarious~ I can't wait to show weng laoshi and cheng laoshi~ I told weng laoshi bout it and she said she can't wait to see it next wk too...lol, and then i told her i rehearse till my voice is nearly hoarse, so where's my compliments? And she was like saying, haha, hmm, i shall think of wad to say to you and wad to give u after i've seen it~ for the time being, jiabao jiayou jiabao jiayou jia jia you~! Lol, i nearly fainted when i saw wad she said...hahaha, toking bout fainting, it reminded me of one of the scenes in the script.

Though it's a sat, there's still so many teachers in school, we saw mr eric tan, ms yue, ms teo and mrs nicholas. Haha, tht stupid mr tan, keep coming to disturb us...so irritating~!!!! But haha, he's funny. Then ms yue was like there when i acted loh......so malu-ing my god........ and there was like so many pple there!!! Like wad the hell.

After tht, went to eat dinner wif pamela and jana...fought wif my 2nd sis on the fone, man, i really can't stand her, dun understand why she's my sister, just my luck~!

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