Yawnssssssssssss....omg, i'm sooooo tired...just came back like an hr ago... was out like the whole of todae... left home at 11.15... went to bugis first to get 4 teacher's day pressie, afterwhich i went cityhall... thot i was the earliest but tiffy was way ahead of me. Wait for the 3 goons, aud, glad and han. Saw caryn coming out, but didn't call her cos i didn't know she was coming, but she saw us and came forward to us cos she knew we were going... finally the 3 goons arrived and we were making lots of noise~!

Haha, han and i was saying tht we shd be gladys image consultant and dress her up...cos she dones't haf the confidence to wear sleeveless and stuff and i've only seen her wearing bermudus... haha, then brought her into the 37 degrees shop where we wanted her to try the outfits... picked a few really swt lookin shirts which made her nearly want to puke. Haha! After that, we went burgerking, sat on two seperate tables becos our grp was too big (more pple joined us). Yan Han, glad and I one table, aud, tiff, eunice and caryn on another... Was fooling ard there... =P Ok like wad's new? Haha...

After tht, we went to the great escape thingi...audris's church event. It's not bad lah, the performance there...haha, and when lina ng say jay chou's xing qing, gladys and i went nuts. We behaved as though we're her fans and we were waving our hands like nbody's business and went "shou qian shou yi bu liang bu san bu si bu wang zhe tian, kan xing xing yi ge liang ge san ge si ge lian cheng xian..." Haha, and everyone who sat rite in front of us turned and looked. Oh btw, i was glady's and audris's hunk todae...lol, and they're my beau -.-' i sure haf "taste" Lol...

Then came a pretty boring part where the pastor was telling us bout some christianailty stuff...as gladys, yanhan and i aren't christians, we got pretty bored and became restless... since we were all so tired for some reasons, the 3 of us dozed off...especially me...but it was pretty comfortable =$ Hahaha...

After the whole event, glad, caryn, han, aud and i went to the arcade, but as usual, only glad, aud and I played...han nv spends her money on useless stuff like these, tht's was she claims. We play the wishy bashy...haha, so funneh~ funneh funneh! Audris's control got one button spoilt and she cldn't play most of the games which requires tht button, so it was actually a game between me and gladys... haha, no need to say, i've of cos won~ muahahaha.... after tht, i went to play my FAVOURITE game...my gawd.....it's been a long time since i touched this machine ok! It's my fav fav fav; rock fever! Haha, i played like a pro...like for once finally, i miss it so much...i gotta go back and play soon, oh my god........ And next we went to play this really stupid game... some kungfu game where u're supposed to kick and punch...haha, it was so funny to see us play, practically laughing our heads off! Kinda fun...and can kinda venge ur anger, pretty cheap too, $1 for 5 tries i think, enuff to tire u out.

We went to a cafe and bought a drink after our "exercise". Was totally drained out. We were also there to wait for the rain to stop. Was pouring cats and dogs...after which we went to tower records to read the magazines. We were on our way to dinner when we saw kym ng and bryan wong hosting a show, and guess wad, he's wearing a pink shirt! Faints... went to the marina foodcourt for our dinner. Actually wanted to eat my ba chor mee...but damn, the queue was as usually long... and todae we cldn't afford to spend our time like tht so we just ate something real simple.

Hunger sastified, went to esplanade, wanted to go to the rooftop but it was not opened todae...dunno y, but i think it's probably of recent terrorists attacks and bombing...sighs, the world's a dangerous place to live in nw. Since we cld go up to get our nice sceneric view, we went downstairs and sat by the sea...equally nice...the benches was wet so i came out wif the damn idea to sit on the railings which seperate us from the sea or rather to prevent us frm falling down. Den sat only for a min, and we saw 2 policemen patrolling and walking towards us. They were indeed coming for us, but not to catch us, only to warn us... "pls do not sit on the railings, your safety is our biggest concern." Liew, so maluating, but lucking we ain't the only ones who kanna their "concern". We talked bout for a bit and we started singing! Lol...we sang seek yee first. It was awesome k...cos this was supposedly a hymn, but we convert it into something hip man... yanhan sang the normal one, and i sang the high pitch back ground while gladys made it into a rap and we combined it! Lol...it was so cool! Muz really said we had fun!

Den oh well, time was running and we gotta rush home cos it was already so late, and we were all like saying we're gonna kanna lock out of our houses...haha...yep, so we went to bus stop and board our respective buses. It was a great dae todae, enjoyed myself, and i think we got closer! Happy =) Well, better go slp nw~~~~~~~ still gotta wake up at 7am tomolo cos i got cip! Gotta sell flags wif a mad hair style...a charity event called mad hair dae~ goodnite!

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self analysis

i'm gonana identify myself

insecured.
jealousy.
fun-loving
bossy
tempremental
caring
loving
helpful
talkative
forgiving
loud
playful
bear grudges
stuborn
sensitive.
emotional
low self-esteem.

These are my factors...those tht exists in me...went for a career course yesterdae which identify all my personities...but i didn't take those i listed above frm the course...i identified these myself, tomolo i'll put up wad's the me i discover in my course.

I'm a person filled wif jealousy...i can't stand it when someone i'm really close to or likes is nicer to other people den they are to me...maybe i shd say tht's petty too...but yeah, i get jealous damn easily...maybe tht's why it always made me feel so insecured and has such low self-esteem.

Example ? This morning. No harmful intentions or wad...but just toking bout myself... i'm injured...and i used to haf my friends waiting for me and walking to the assembly ground...but todae, 4 of my good friends got carried away wif talking among themselves and forgot all bout me...i was limping all the wae behind...but i didn't open my mouth to ask to stop them...i just watched them walk on, hoping they wld turn round and realise i'm missing...but none did... maybe tht shows how little i meant to them ? I dunno... Now in my mind, i'm probably telling myself, big deal, i wun die without them...but deep down inside, i haf no idea how hurt i am just by little issues liddat...tht's y life's always miserable for me... do i really mean so little in my friends' hearts? When i'm feeling lonely, leftout or hurt, i become totally reserved in my own corner, i
m totally starring into space and i dun tok. When questions are asked, i answer them wif either a nod or shaking my head.

Maybe all these time i'm overly bossy, maybe i'm too sensitive, maybe i'm too tempremental...maybe these are the main causes.But i can't take away all these and make myself a perfect and flawless person rite? These bad points are part of me...dun we always say, accept me for who i am?

I know myself best...i can be a pretty nasty person when i'm angered...the grudges are held and i remember them for life. Nasty temper and words emerged when i'm angry, not a very tolerant person. I get over things very quickly; forgiving but it's really within my memories. I know i'm someone who's very fun loving, loving, caring and helpful. I can love people to death and sacrifice a lot just for them. That's me. I'm serious yet playful. Most of the time i'm very helpful, and there i times when there's excess of it tht it seem like wad we all called kayponess..

All these are just borned in me, if i were to remove some of these, ain't it removing part of me as well? Sometimes i really find life so difficult to comprehend and there are times when i think the way i handle my life is totally like screwing up every components of it, freaking things up and basically, madness. Frankly speaking, maybe too much had happened today, not a good day for me...i think i've been zonked~ maybe it's wld be nice if i cld just vanish into thin air~

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Right Here Waiting


Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

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I love these songs, u all shd dl it!!! =D

Dying Inside To Hold You - Thomas Timmy

I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped as usual, had a coffee and a pie
When I turned to leave, I couldn't believe my eyes
Standing there I didn't know what to say
Without one touch we stood there face to face
*And I was dying inside to hold you
I couldn't believe what I felt for you
Dying inside, I'm dying inside
But I couldn't bring myself to touch you
You said hello and asked my name
I didn't know if I should go or remain
Inside I felt my life and really changed
I knew that it would never be the same
Standing there I didn't know what to say
First I looked away when I whispered your name
repeat * twice
One hello changed my life
I didn't believe in love at first sight
But you have shown me what its like
And I know my love
repeat * until fade

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Once In A Lifetime - Gregorian

When you're near me,
I close my eyes
I want to feel you by my side
When you kiss me
I close my eyes
Want you by my side

Chorus

When I realise
there's no "tell me lies"
then I know it's Once in A Lifetime
Making love to you
everything is new
You know you're my Once in A Lifetime

When you touch me,
I burn inside
Cold shiver down my spine
When you take me
.............
I can't get enough

Repeat chorus

Once in a Lifetime 3x

Giving all I've got
And you left me not
You're my lover Once In A Lifetime
Taking care of you
Everytime it's new
You know you're my Once In A Lifetime

Chorus 3x

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This is the Night - Clay Aiken

When the world wasn't upside down
I could take all the time I had
But I'm not gonna wait
When a moment can vanish so fast
Cuz every kiss is a kiss you can never get back
Lift me up
In your eyes
If you told me that is where heaven is
Well, you'd be right
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night
When the answer to all my dreams
Is as close as a touch away
Why am I here holding back what I'm trying to say?
Lift me up
In your eyes
If you told me that is where heaven is
Well, you'd be right
Hold me close
To your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night
This is the night where we capture forever
And all our tomorrows begin
After tonight we will never be lonely again
Lift me up
In your eyes
If you told me that’s where heaven is
Well, you'd be right
Hold me close
To your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night

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Never gonna leave your side - Daniel Beddingfield (Going out to all my beloved friends!!!! ; duckie, han, tortoise, amelia, laopo tiff, bern, eileen, ed and to whoever i've miss out!

I feel like a song without the words, a man without a soul, a bird without its wings, a heart without a home.
I feel like a knight without a sword, a sky without the sun cos you are the one.
I feel like a ship beneath the wind, a childest whos lost its way, a door without a key, a face without a name.
I feel like a breath without the air, and everydays the same, since you've gone away.

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning,
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face.
There are no words that could describe how i miss you, no
I miss you, everyday.

Im never gonna leave your side,
and im never gonna leave your side.
I am still holding on girl, i wont let you go,
cos when im lying in your arms i know im home.

They tell me that a man can lose his mind living in the pain,
the calling times gone by, im crying in the rain.
You know i've wasted half the time and im on my knees again,
'till you come to me. (yeah)

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning,
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face.
There are no words that could describe how i miss you, no
I miss you, everyday.

Im never gonna leave your side,
and im never gonna leave your side.
I am still holding on girl, i wont let you go,
lay my head against your heart, i know im home.

Im never gonna leave your side,
and im never gonna leave your side.
I am still holding on girl, i wont let you go,
cos when im lying in your arms i know im home.

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Arghs...sometimes i feel tht i dun really understand humans!
I just read somebody's blog...and i really dunno wad's the hell wrong wif her!

It was like it's her fault, but she goes round cursing those who punished her? Like wad the hell? I read so many people's blog, and i remember seeing someone said this "sometimes we may just misunderstood a person, dislikes her,but when we read thru their blogs of wad they haf to say deep down, they're actually nice pple." I read a few entries of hers, but no matter how i view it, i dun see a nice pt of her. I'm like wondering if she's human wif a heart.

Dun u ever reflect? I may be nice to you, but if u ever mess wif my friends, you just watch, i'll nv let you off, i'll make your life miserable just like you've made life miserable for out class!

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I'm toking to my dad dad nw, heeeeee...been a long time...miss her man~ Things are nt going too well, but oh man, tht's life. Cheer up dad~ miss ya always~

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It's a bad bad day today... had terrible terrible cramps~!!!!!! Sobs... and my leg hurts more than ever!The sinseh accupunctured me! -.-' I was a brave girl...haha, i didn't shed a single tear...lol...now i'm limping again...sighs... I got 3 body guards though ? Yoona, audris and gladys..hahaha, i haf nice friends... =D Gladys and audris even went to get a hot water BOTTLE for me~! Oops...i mean hot water bag! Hahaha!!! Audris, does tht sound familiar? Hehehe :P Well, i'll stop here for nw, need a rest~

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things i'll never regret

Guess wad? Ms Yue changed our sitting arrangement and i guessed she really can't hide her emotions frm us any longer...she teared infront of us.

Geee...but ya noe wad? She remembered the handful of us trying to say sorry to her... I thought it was kinda embarassing, cos remember ? I mentioned before tht she didn't really accept our apologies or rather, she said we didn't haf to apologise to her...it was kinda embarassing to be rejected liddat, but i guess it's something i'll never regret, at least it's something tht maybe made her feel better? She's really grateful towards us...saying tht we're the only good ones who never gave her any trouble. Haha,she's like so proud of us, and everyone who apologised to her was proud of theirselves too! Although we were sad for her, you could still see us beaming away. I hope she's better ? Sighs... i hate to see any teachers upsetted by us, erm, besides tay yit meng and pat tan, haha, i've totally no sympathy for them! =X

Well...tht's something good tht had happened today. There's something sad tht happened unfortunately... Ms Yue seperated me from Amelia!!!! EEEEEE....anemolia!!! Haha...i missed you! Okay...i know she's like probably rolling her eyes and saying Yucks! Sighs...just when we are starting to clique a little better? We were toking so much during english todae~! Haha, maybe she's happy to get away from me...i dunno...but i really miss her, haha, sad sia...(cos no one to bully liao) =X Hahaha! oops...she'll fume when she sees this. Awww... i guessed it ain't tht bad nw lah~ i'm sitting with gladys! Haha...who says i can't disturb her ;P My duckie audris's behind me too! Haha, darlings unite again! But the someone dat i dun really like in cls is sitting rite so close to me nw! Yucks~ oh well, i guess nt everything cld be perfect...so just be satisfied! =D

Had a heart to heart talk with yoona just nw, glad tht we haven't really drifted like what i've always thought. Went for lunch at bugis's yoshinoya~ Yummy, the food there was delicious~ gossiped a little, and cldn't help being proud of ourselves! :p Then we went shopping! Lol! Arghxz... teacher's day is coming!!! I don't know what to get for them~ i shop rd the whole of bugis and nothing seems good enuff for them. I spent to much on teachers day last yr, going to spend less this year! So i'll only be getting present for Mrs Seng, ms yue, ms shanthi, mrs lee and weng laoshi~ Tht'll be enuff to make me go broke...oh wells...

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Dat little red dot far far awaee!

Weeeeeeeeeeee...i saw mars todae! I was like so happy and excited that i've finally spotted it, i've been like looking out for it for the past few days already and i can't even find it! And with some luck todae, i finally finally found it!

I dug out all my stuff!!! I dug out my binoculars to get a satisfying view...when i got tired of the still rather pathetic view, i dug out my video cam which can zoom much further...i took 3 pics of it! =I I love it!!! It's absolutely cooL! Small small far far glowing glowing red red one!!!!!! Weeeeeeeee...so cool. This will probably be the only one time i'll see mars... cos the next time when mar's gonna come so close again will be in the year 2187. That's will probably be my next next life or maybe ever later! Haha... They say Mars can be seen the clearest on 28th August, which is i think also the last day of "mars visit". This is such an awesome experience man, will upload the foto soon! In my excitement...i wrote a song cos my inspiration came pouring in!

*Mars* (All the same somehow)

It's a special special day today
Cos looking out of my window i saw you
Glowing away so brilliantly
Wishing so much i could reach you

No matter how hard i tried
How far I'm reaching for
I wouldn't be able to touch you
All the same somehow
I knew i've already felt you

Chorus:
All the same somehow
I know you're somewhere around
It just that i don't see you
on just any ordinary days
For you're the miles away mars
And i'm dying to touch you

It's not always that i'll see you
Probably a 1000yrs later i see you next
I won't let this chance slip away now
I'll watch you all these while when you're here
Seeing the glowing redness in you

When you're gone and i don't see you
Maybe i'll start missing you again
Do come back and visit soon
Cos i love you and want to see you again

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