Happy mother's day

Fri: GUESS WAD?! I BROKE THE 2ND THING IN 1 WEEK! MY MOTHER'S BIG CHINA 'ANTIQUE' VASE! OMG~ I dun understand hw can i be so lucky and so clumsy and so better fingers and shit... ahaha...all pamela's and fc's fault... if pamela told me she'll be late, i wldn't haf to rush was i was doing and i wldn't haf broke it, and if fc wasn't coming, i wldn't haf vaccummed the floor... yes, the idiot, me, broke the stupid vase while vaccuming the floor... lol, but just kidding lah, it's totally unrelated to them. Luckily my parent's nt in SG, otherwise i'm gonna haf a hell outta it again... haiz... i broke the vase and the vase broke me... cos i went out to buy a replacement vase, in the event of hoping tht my mother wldn't find out tht i've broken the vase... haha... and guess wad... till nw, she really hasn't noticed it *oh yay* Haha... yeah, and tht darn vase caused me like wad?! $85 bucks... TERRIBLE... nw u noe why i said the vase broke me... but guess wad again, when i bought back the vase den i realised hw different it looked frm the original one... haiz... and shd i haf known, i'll just buy those cheap ones i saw earlier at a shop... Haha... Aniwae, i also went to buy a new comp tht dae.. haha, thanks to FC~ haha, thanks for taking so much trouble to help me find the vase, bring it back to my hse, den go back to sim lim and collect the comp, set up the comp, go back home to take ur xp cd and come back again to finish setting up my comp... haha, really thanks a lot... my comp rawks now... hahs~ it's so damn shiok to haf my own comp, no more conflicts~ ah shiok... i haf everything i needed nw, every electronic gadget i wanted i haf it nw... i haf my mp3 player, i haf video cam, i haf digital camp, i haf my portable dvd player and i haf my own comp~ ahhhh hw shiok is this man... oohhhhh hahaha.... -.-' ignore me =P

Todae: Met up wif the gals again; bro and cecilia~ Yipin was supposed to come but cldn't make it last min... so in the end only 3 of us. Both of them were late again and i was the earliest~! Waited for them again... haiz........... den we went to coffee club at wisma, everything was self svc and i hated tht.... haha...we sat there for bout 2 hr+ chatting... haha... it's been long man... den after tht just roamed bout orchard lor... walked down to cine... actually wanted to play arcade, but the arcade sucked. We went into the more than words shop... and ed and i went crazy...we bought stickers...cos we thinking of starting to collect stickers again...crazy pple we are...den after tht, we went down to buy bubbletea lor...but i didn't buy any...cos quite bloated...so didn't buy any. Cecilia left first cos she gotta go back for mother's day dinner... ed and i cont walking ard...went hmv and stayed there for quite sometime... listened to Jolin cd...and i thot it was really quite gd...hmmmmm....too bad, no money nw... maybe if by sch start i still haven't get sick of her song, i'll buy... Haha...after tht headed home but went out again wif my family again for mother's day dinner too...brought my mother to marina south for the bbq steamboat... we(my sisters) quite enjoyed it lah, but as for my mother, it was too hot to really be able to enjoy... and we went to a nt so gd store... pls ok... nxt time dun go chong pang...it sucks...the food variety is really limited until cannot be anymore limited... yeah... so waste money...somemore more exp den other stores tht offers better food and more varieties too... yep... after dinner, went to play arcade wif my da jie while the rest of the family watched on.,.. haha... it was good... didn't spend tht much too...my game skills are improving~ Haha... ok lah... tht's all for nw...i'm going to slp soon liao... so yep...

Oh yeah one last thing before i go... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY~! I lurve my mama...~! I love all my mothers~! But my real mother the most of cos~! Haha... *Muacks*

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Blasting

Back to update...this week was a blast... haha, and i'm so damn broke now... oh well...tht ALWAYS happen to me... haha, i wonder hw am i gonna cope when sch reopen... but i dun wanna cont working like some of my frens decided to. Hmm...hope my mother will increase my allowance den... it better be... Hehs...

Wed: Met up wif my brother Cecilia... wah lau wei... she's really terrible u noe... go out wif her i always feel... i dunno wad word to use... cos everytime i meet up wif her, i always haf to wait for her...it's ok if it's like 5-15mins... but i always haf to wait like wad??? 30-60++ mins... wah lau... damn sian lor... awaiting is a torture man... haiz... this time she was bout an hr late... sighs, so i went to the koi garden and sat down there alone to wait for her... was quite peaceful la, watched the fishes... the kois damn scary... almost keep jumping out of the water... When she finally came, we went to kbox lor... den we sang a lot of songs together, quite cool...haha, cos quite nw nv sing wif her liao, den when i was selecting songs, i saw a new and unfamiliar mtv, it was zhao wei's shi yi yue~! Haha... I nv seen tht before, tht was like my fav song ? And when i saw it, i keep telling myself nt to get too excited... cos i scared it's dat kinda stupid bluff pple mtv, but it's nt, it's genuine~! Haha, and it's sooo cool~! I love it so much, during the whole mtv i was like drooling~! Lol...

After kbox, we went to BUM...woah...bum was hafing really big sale...and i swept awae almost everything there! Haha...nah, i'm just exaggerating, i wish i'm tht rich... haha, i bought 4 shirts for only $30 bucks... haha, quite worth it rite... shiok~! Obviously after that, i became damn broke...can't really spend anymore $$. After shopping, we headed for Bishan, cos cecilia needed to collect her pay and i wanted to go petslover to buy a hammy... sighs...

Reached J8 and my god... within 5 mins of stepping into J8, guess wad? I bummed into 3 or 4 pple tht i noe... haha...terrible...but quite sometime since i've been there, so it was quite good too.. haha, bro went to collect her pay and i went petslover.Saw a few hamsters there, and they were all cute...I took quite sometime there, in the end...i finally chose one out of a whole litter... it's a she..and she's really cute... haven't taken her pic yet...will put up soon... I felt quite bad for seperating her out of the litter... but den, i didn't haf a choice, the whole litter was sapphires and i wanted another normal winter white, but they didn't haf any there, so i tok i'll go to another pet shop in bishan area to get the normal winter white. So acc bro to haf her dinner first at cafe cartel... haha, bro is so rich, so envy her...

At the bus stop on our way to the pet shop, we called Edrea up and persuaded her to join us since she stays so near... and since it's been so long since we last met up... so yep, at first she was quite reluctant cos she was studying for her physics test, but i managed to persuade her and she relented, and so after 21540324 days, we met up again =) Haha... missed tht gal~ We went to tht pet shop and saw my normal winter white, i told the petshop owner to bring down the cage so i cld haf a better look, and when she did, she left us alone to look at the hamsters, and that was when a couple approached us and asked if i was buying. When i told her i was, she told me nt to cos she has 2 hamsters at home and she's planning to give away cos they got no time to take care of it and cos they alr haf 3 dogs at home... i was considering and thinking if i shd buy or take their hamsters... my consideration was based on whether i shd help "save" lives instead of buying 2 new hamsters and wasting the other 2 lives, as they may be put down or die due to lack of care? Den i was thinking since i'll alr made 2 of my hamsters (baby and piercy) lost their lives... i shd do some deeds instead...those at the pet shop will eventually go to homes of pple who wants them... so yeah...wif tht, i agreed to accept the hamsters... they gave me 2, it was a pudding and a normal winter white,and they're rather humongous~! Haha... but oh well... actually the plan was tht i'll bring home the sapphire tht i bought and bring the normal winter white home too since tht was wad i decided to buy initially... den the pudding will go back wif either edrea or cecila... but in the end, i brought home all 3... -.-' cos the both(winterwhite and pudding) were too loving and we can't bear to seperate them... so yeah... nw i haf 4 hamsters in my hse... and i'm sure there'll be more to come... frm the winterwhite and the pudding... haha... their babies will be called winterwhite pudding... so cool. Hehs... Anywae, all of them are unnamed yet, so if any of u guys can think of good names, pls pls tell me k =)

Thurs: Went to SP early in the morning cos gt some stupid ICT camp briefing thingi... Sian man... i'm really beginning to dislike SP... so many pple there are like so super annoying and such posers can... and i hate tht... argh...esp the seniors... yanhan and i can't stand this snr called brandon...and i think he's realy.......... g-r-o-s-s.

Oh yeah damn funny...while queueing up to register, yanhan and i were like toking damn loudly lah~! We were like giving a lot of comments, den after tht, i was like asking
Lex:"eh where's tht nerd tht wore the office suit during the enrolment ah?"
Han:"yeah huh...dun see him...dunno leh~"
Lex:"Must be these kinda camps too tough for him lah, tht's y he nv sign up"
Han:"Haha, yeah huh...must be"
*silence and cont waiting*
Han turned ard and turned back immediately
Han:Omg... u noe wad.... i think the guy we were toking bout is rite behind us...u go see whehter it is....
I turned and i really saw him standing behind us... haha... omg... hw can it be so conincidental~! Lol...i hope he doesn't noes we;re tokin bout him...so a piece of advice, nxt time u wanna tok bad bout anyone, pls look ard before opening ur golden mouth~ Haha... -.-'

The whole darn briefing took damn long lah... wah lau, came out wif all those stupid ice breakers and games tht's really damn retarded lah...... SP~! Haiz.... really dunno wad to sae liao. Drag until like 2.45 den let us off... terrible, horrible. Yanhan and i were like so hungry we just decided to eat at the Macs there..after tht,Yanhan came to my hse. We took 147 home, the whole journey home took 1 hr... haha, so i decided, when sch starts, i'll take mrt there and 147 home. At first we decided to watch so close again, but in the end, we changed to jade goddess... haha, i think it's relatively nt a bad movie lah, but there shd be more action, more love and a little humour... cos it's kinda dry. After tht, we rushed down to meritus mandarin to haf our kick boxing... Kick boxing was terrible tht dae... Jason went so fast till i can't even catch up... i was blur thruout like the whole lesson, and it irritated me so much. Haha... oh wadever~!

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In memory of Baby & Piercy

I think i really sucked as an owner... i dunno where and what haf gone wrong. Now images are just flashing back of the times i had wif them, esp Baby. I still remember that time i bought her back frm the pet shop during my prelims period cos Honey and yuepi had just died together and i wanted some company. So i went to the pet shop to get her, tht was bout 7 mths ago. She was so tiny then, and so wobbly...i had no idea tht she was liddat den, thot she was still young and unsteady, but at tht time, she was alr so swt den... always the gentle and patient one... though she's the tardy one, she nv fails to lick me or even anyone when we touch her, it's always so friendly and welcoming. Day by day i watched her grow, but she nv grew steadier, she was still as wobbly and as clumsy as ever, den i realised that she must haf been bornt liddat. I thot she's was weak den, but just last mth when she caught some eye infection and seemed to be leaving me too... she strove and fought hard to live... i almost gave up on her, but she was that determined, and so i thot she was unique and brave. I grew to understand her, i healed her tht time and she was once again back to her normal self.

I still remembered that i came home frm work one day feeling really sian and kinda tired and pissed.. i took her out and was stroking her... she was crawling about for a feel mins, but after that, she seemed to sense that i was nt feeling good, and she just lied still on my tummy there...and i just cont to stroke her, she almost fell aslp den... hw many hamsters actually does that? She was there, but now she's gone for good.

Serve me rite, hah, when she was here, took her for granted, and nw she's gone, i'm kicking a big fuss here. I nv learn my lesson lah...so nthing new...i noe i'm gonna miss her... and i feel that this is all my fault. I feel tht i've deprived her of her life. She haven't lived to her max... maybe if she has gotten to another owner, she might haf still be alive and kicking. I dunno...it was all so sudden, if i haf nt taken her out for a walk, i might nt even realised she's sick... she still looked so good...maybe she's just puting on a brave front, maybe it was hurting like hell inside her.. she didn't wanna give up too the very end, and i thot it cld still be like last time, i thot she wld haf made it like she had done so last time, i thot i cld haf cured her like last time. But it nv happened. She nv stop breathing till the turmoil really tortured her to the extreme. Maybe if i've taken care of her more properly, maybe she wldn't haf fell sick. I just dunno where went wrong. Both of them left me in a matter of 2 days, such a blow, it's hurting so much.

Baby.. i'm so sorry... u're really my 1 of the best hamsters that i've ever gotten in my life... no 1's gonna replace u in my heart... i hope tht u'll be doing well up there... i hope u're nt hurting anymore... if there's more than anything that i can do for u now...i hope that ur pain was be inflicted on me instead. Thanks for giving me all the wonderful time all these while, u'll be dearly missed.

Piercy, even though the time i had wif u was really short, u've still brought wonderful memories to my life, and i wanna thank you for making my days too... i also wanna say that i'm really sorry for depriving ur life too.


My baby always

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Changes

Back to update... haiz...hasn't been feeling too good these 2 days...emotionally bad... dunno y also..maybe it's pms.. it's like i'll wake up...den try to find something to do...even when i go out, i'm also like zombing about... very lifeless..i just feel that something is lacking...but i dunno wad... it's a terrible feeling lah...

Aniwae went out yesterdae, was trying to find vicki... and the funny thing was that we dun even haf an inkling bout her whereabouts or details, and they wanna find her... i thot tht was quite dumb and lame... and i actually didn't want to go wif them yesterdae... but my 2nd sis was making a fuss bout the comp...i knew i had better get out of the house, before another fiery argument breaks out again and i'll haf to pay a heavy price for tht again... i'm tired and i had had enuff. Sometimes i really wonder why i haf to haf such a sister... why can't i just lead a peaceful life... u noe, i was comtemplating before i fell aslp last nite... i guess it wldn't be tht difficult to turn hate into love for someone, but tht really haf to depend on who the person is. I feel that as if i'm only the one always trying to salvage the relationship and she nv bothers bout anything...if tht's the case, den why shd i try so hard and make myself so tired? I dun understand. When i was kinda younger, i kinda hated my mother too... but tht nv lasted.. i love my family so much nw, besides my 2nd sister, tht's y i said i guess it wldn't be tht difficult to turn hate into love, it'll really haf to depend on who the person is. I also can't understand, hw, hw can anyone in this world, always deem themselves as rite, and others always as the wrong parties ? I really pray tht there aren't many of these kinda pple in the world, cos i really understand and sympathise wif pple who haf met such pple. Nvm if she's liddat... the prob is that my parents are just shutting their eyes and foregoing this kinda attitude and behaviour. That's what irks me the most. I've said what i haf to, and i guess they've kinda tried doing something too, but cos of my 2nd sis conditions, my mothers especially urges us to give in to her. I feel that her behaviours is sometimes so ridiculous that it really can't be condone! I really at a lost as to wad i shd do~! Well... i just guess that i shd do the same as my parents.. cos if they as elders, can swallow their pride and bear wif this kinda ill behaviour, i jolly accomodate them and let tht asshole sister of my do wad she likes, be king if she wants to.

I've told a friend of mine bout it... and she told me something which i've alr thought about it...
Mo: "It doesn't matter if ur sister is going crazy and doing all this unacceptable stuff.. wad's most important is that YOU know what you're doing, and that u're doing the right stuff.. tht's all u need to know and all tht u shd do."
Me:"So what if i've done the right stuff? It seems as if nobody cares and nobodys seems to notice, i dun get any rewards and nt even any compliments, so what's the use of it ? Esp for a person like me who's so eager to be noticed! You noe hw terrible it feels"
Mo: "Pple will naturally notice when u're really done the right thing, and even if they don't, what matter most is that u've alr set ur own consicous right, and when u do think bad, u're the one that will feel good, sure it's no easy task to attain, but when thinkin back, u're the one who's at an advantage."

After thinking thru wad she said, it really does makes sense, i dun haf to specially go out of my way to do anything... i guess all i haf to do is to avoid her as much as i possibly cld, and when she's being ridiculous or demanding, i'll jus give in to her, maybe at the end of the day, she'll be the 1 feeling remorseful and ashamed of her own doings, and i... maybe feeling bullied and push ard and irritated and pissed off, will or might prob feel proud at the end of the day. Hah, it all makes sense. My mouth may be damn foul when someone 'pulled off the trigger', therefore i shd really just try to keep my mouth shut at tense times or when someone obvious spark off something... haha, and i'm really trying very hard too.

I kept thinking, after changing all these -tve pts of mine, will i still be the same Jiabao as i used to be ? I like the Jiabao i am nw, i dun like changing myself into someone like i've mentioned... i hated the jiabao long before, but after 'revamping', i liked it... i always thot tht such behaviours tht i've mentioned just nw seemed kinda weak and i really hate it, why do i always haf to be pushed ard, be bullied, always haf to give in and always loose? Doesn't that just seems like a big sore loser ? But think bout it, hw much courage needs to be gathered to be able to do all these esp if it's for someone like me ? Ha, something just struck me, this behaviour will only be carried out at home, afterall, like my mother said, we're a family, the outcome doesn't matter. It's quite true, everyone has to make sacrifices and compromise to keep a family going, to keep it happy, since someone so inconsider and insensible like my 2nd sister can't compromise to all these, and since i'm so in need of some peace at a place i call my HOME, i'll just haf to do that. That seems at least more acceptable to me =)

Ahh... i feel better nw tht everything has been released and sorted out =) So i hope it works. Yep, enuff of all these burdens.. haha. Went out todae, was at orchard area again. Hung out wif my eldest sis and her friends todae. Was at coffee club... we order a cheesy mushroom pie and boy it was good~! Heee... but apparently da jie didn't thot so...it was kinda too cheesy n she gt sick very soon.We slacked and talked rubbish there and also viewed the taiwan pics that they took. After slacking at coffee club, we went to another place to slack again -.-' Haha... suang gu da jie said she nv went in NYDC at outside heeren before and so we proceeded there to cont slacking.. she order an elephanchino drink called love potion and it was so big and milky it made her wanna puke... till nw,her stomache still feels kinda uneasy. After slacking, we went for dinner, the whole that was meaningless and unpurposeful.. haha..we went to crystal jade for dinner and i thot dinner was great... ;) Went home after dinner cos it was kinda late alr...

Think i shd be busy for the nxt few days or so... mo actually asked me to go see vicki again tomolo, but i really dun want to haf to do all those silly and stupid waiting again esp if we haf NO INKLING as to where she'll be and wad time she'll arrive all these shit... so yeah... i'm just gonna stay at home tomolo, it'll be peaceful at home tomolo so i dun mind! Haha, just my father and I... heh... den wed will be hanging out wif bro cecilia, den thurs going back to SP and after tht hanging out wif Yanhan, den fri will either be working, doing admin or getting a new comp =D I hope i'll be able to get my new comp.. i'm anticipating like shit~!. Haha... So yep.. guess tht's all for nw~!

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