i think tht there's seriously something wrong wif me, infact, something very wrong. I could do all the sums at home yesterdae, yes...all...and wad happened during the test todae? I cldn't do anything. I really hate myself for this... what is the damn bloody hell wrong wif me... like wad the hell, it's nt tht i didn't study or anything ok... i did~! It's so unfair, they said hardwork WILL pay off, but why is it for me tht my hardwork NEVER pays off? I dun understand, i seriously dun understand, what's she gonna think of me ? That i'm stupid ? That's i'm lazy and tht i dun study? WHAAAT? I did, i did everything i cld, i seeked help, i practiced, wad more cld i do ? Maybe i really need someone to teach me wad i'm supposed to do... i knew them yesterdae, everything was like so easy... i wish someone cld just tell me wad happened. I so wanna tok to her bout it, i need help, but if i tok to her, it'll be against my pride. Damn, i really hate this kinda feeling. I dun wanna be looked down upon. This is nt the first time this kinda thing has happened. It has happened dunno over hw many million zillion times, and i'm really sick and tired of it. I'm nt sad, i'm really nt, but i swear i'm super angry,furious wif myself, this can't go on. I'm really tired, fuck.