back to update again =) this week is quite a slack week... hahaha, nt a lot of homework and i gotta slack A LOT. Aniwae, of all the days this week so far, i think yesterdae's was the most meaningful dae, becos for cme, mr tan told us to make cards for someone we're grateful to. At first, i didn't want to do it, i wanted to give it to ms yue and ms yip initially, but den i thought it'll be kinda stupid and awkward to give them a card suddenly without reason so i just thought i wldn't do it. Den mr tan went on to sae tht we really shd do, cos if we dun, it just shows tht we're nt grateful and tht if we haf the courage to do it, it will really be damn meaningful for the person receving it. Something liddat larrr.. So yeah, i finally decided i shd do, and in the end, i ended up doing like wad?! 6 cards... and i didn't even do any work or revising yesterdae, i spent the whole nite doing the cards.

1 to ms yue, for trying so hard to teach us maths, 1 to ms yip, for lending me a listening year and consoling me when i was down, 1 to mrs seng, who nv fails to brighten up my dae, just love this woman man... haha, cos she's the swtest person on earth. Den 1 to my eldest sister, for being so understanding and encouraging, for being one of the best sisters in the world anione cld ever ask for, den one to yanhan, for being the one and only friend who really understood me and accepted me for who i am, for being there when i was down, for listening to my complains, who beared wif my ill temper and so on, and last but nt least, edrea, for always being here for me no matter wad. Though i'm nt say very very extremely close to her, i noe this gal is always willing to help me out. =) Thank you everyone, without u guys, i wld nt have been here animore. Haha. Really really love u guys, cos u guys rawk my entire world, my universe... haha...dunno wad else lar.

Den todae went to give them the cards. Gave edrea first, she seems really happy to receive it... haha, den i gave it to yanhan, she too seemed so touched,betcha wasn't expecting anithing liddat... haha... embraced one another after she read my card. =) Sweet. After school, went to find the teachers, saw ms yip first, so gave it to her. Haha, she was like, "thank u, tht really made a diff... thank you so much." Den when i told her i did it becos of cme, she gave me a really hard smack on my shoulders! Haha, she thot i did for the sake of doing and made her happy for nthing, den i told her "no lor... even told it was becos of CME, u still came into my mind and i made this for u out of like so many pple u noe..." Den she got all touched again... haha, dat woman is mad lar, always "resort to violence" =P Den mrs seng came out, and i gave it to her! Haha, cos in the card, i mentioned tht she was my sun cos she always brighten up my dae... haha, den she teasingly asked me who's my moon den... -.-' dat idiot... always haf to twist the question.. haha, but i guess she really felt good after reading the card? Haha, though she don't reveal a lot on her face but at least she did compared to someone, haha, she told me she'll paste the card on her table! Wahaha...den i told her dat nxt time when i go into the staffrm, i muz see the card on her table ah...den she said okok... haha, den lastly it was ms yue. Kim and i gave her the card together.
We started or rather i started to tell her tht we got a card to give her and she was like "orhhh!", and i thought she alr knew, she i asked, "huh, u alr noe wad's this all about alr ah?" And she was like "huh? no! i just orh only cos i saw the card!" We were like "rites." Then she was like, huh, only frm two of u all ah...den before we cld answer her, she was like, "eh, tht was a little too much of me to expect so much", another idiot u noe...always ask questions which she answers them herself in the end. -.-' Haha, den kim and i was supposed to say thank you together, but before i even got ready, she said thank u without me and i was like "HEY~ u're supposed to wait for me!" and ms yue was laughing at how silly we looked. Made her read the card as usual, when she finished, she said thank you. den kim and i said thank you again, after which she thanked us again, and we thanked her again, and we laughed at our never ending thank yous. Den she said, ok, i'll try very hard to nt give up on ur cls, and i'll try very hard to continue nagging at you all and scold u all to make u all pass up ur homework.. and me being sarcastic said "ya, and we're try very hard to continue to make noise in cls". Ok, dat was lame.

Aniwae, i think this event was really meaningful. It's like i received thanks too ? From edrea and someone whom i least expected, praveena... haha, i was so touched man. =) And guess wad, my secret pal finally wrote to me, but i haf no idea who my secret pal is!

Aniwae, was really happy yesterdae too. COS WE MADE IT TO THE FINALS! I was soooooooooo happy when i saw the results! I was like so anxious?! And it was suppsoed to be announced in the chinese newspaper, zao bao, but it wasn't when i checked it out in school, so cheng laoshi and i were really anxious, after sch, made her call up the organizer but those idiots did nt pick up the fone, and so we gave up. I went for banner painting and when i reached home, i took my usual nap, when i woke up, i decided to go online to temasek jc's website and try my luck to see if the results wld be there, and true enuff, the results were there. I was like crossing my finger, praying tht we wld really be able to get into the finals, cos afterall, my jr and i kinda screwed it up. So i was like scrolling down slowing, the first on the list wasn't our sch, so wasn't the 2nd, or the 3rd, nor the 4th, nt even the 5th! So i got disheartened and thought we didn't make it. To my SURPRISE, when i scroll all the wae down, i saw our school's name! Sheng Ying Nu Zhong DA BA YAO. I cldn't believe it at first, but after a few secs of atonishment, i burst out in screams! Wahahahaha... so happy can, it's been long since we ever gotten into anything.. .and the good thing was, out of 33 schools, only 7 were selected and we were out of the seven schools!!!!! WHooooohooo... *dancing for joys*

But though i'm happy wif tht, i'm damn unhappy wif the results of my bloody school work. I'm seriously like failing everything, and i dunno wad happened to me!!! I feel like dying man. I dunno wad's wrong and this is really making my morale low, if this goes own, i probably wlf nt even want to touch my books animore. Sighs, esp for maths.Even wif a.maths tuition, i'm still failing. Is it tht i've nt tried hard enuff or is it tht i'm plain stupid? I really dunno man, getting really disillusioned. Perhaps i've always been to reliant of pple to tell me where my mistakes are, but nw, there are no one to tell me animore and i'm just so lost! Haiz... i got to persevere man... somebody seriously gotta spur me on, cos if there's no one to do tht, i'll really die, serious, no jokes.

Well, maybe i just can't study at home? When i was studying outside, u noe i was like doing so much bloody darn better? Compared to studying at home which resulted me in failing everthing ?! It's like so what the hell. Sighs... solutions gotta come fast before i go bonkers. Oh well, shall end here nw and be a nerd... go mug liao. Love all ya guys.