sometimes i feel i'm gonna break down and cry

wor...been dunno hw many days since i updated this blog...wah darn sian man, in just 3 more days and school's gonna reopen, hw hw hw hw hw hw sickening can this be ? Hmm, i dunno if i'm excited or reluctant, haha, actually i'm half half. But nxt yr sec four, so i guess there's more reluctance den excitement... haha... miss a lot of pple in school, but when sch begins, i noe i'll miss my hols... lol, well, tht's human... and i'm only human. Haha... and wanna noe more ? I haven't even finish my hw and i had like piles more to go...sian... haha, the result of going out everydae-.-'

U noe, my mother can really be annoying and irritating at times, but there are times when she's real swt and stuff... i wonder why she can't be swt more than she's always annoying...she really pisses my ass off at times loh.... damn buay tahan one u noe... she expects me to do hw, and when i do do them, she doesn't see them, jus becos i'm in the room and she's in the kitchen... she claims she didn't see me do, so i assumed she wants me to do my hw rite before her eyes, which is really damn RIDICULOUS loh... i dun understand why she is so demanding and unreasonable u noe...if she's demanding only, tht's another case, but nw it's both which really makes it intolerable. ARHX.... sometimes i love her more than anything, but sometimes i really hate her, why is it tht all my auntie is so understanding and nice and she can't learn to be a little like dem? I'm nt expecting too much u noe... juz a little bit of care and concerm, love and care and gentleness will really satisfy me. Maybe just blame it on my luck, i'm damn suay. I can understand fierce and demanding mothers, but i can't understand fierce, spiteful, demanding and unreasonable mother. Maybe someone shd teach me, maybe i ought to be a more understand daughter. grr...... this is really living hell, it's killing me~